after calum's death the boys decide to write their feelings down. after being with calum for almost 5 years luke finds it hard to say goodbye to his one true love and struggles to accept that he is gone
i'm sorry i got mad in the last entry. i just couldn't take it. your funeral was too overwhelming.
i don't know if you can tell but it's been a few weeks since my last entry. i didn't feel like writing. i've just stayed in bed looking at old photos.
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had you even started feeling sad then. how long did you feel like this?
i think i get why you wanted to die. i will never know why but i'm starting to know how you felt. to be lonely and feel like you have no purpose.
sometimes i wish my blade would dig too deep and i'll just be gone. gone from this nightmare of a world. just so i could be in peace or even be with you.
mike says we should start looking for a new bass player so we can start writing new music. i don't need another bass player i just want you back.
we're going to clean out your room and give the stuff to your mum. i think she's hurting more than i am. maybe not so much anymore.
