She's a girl with an uncontrollable and unpredictable emotion. She knows of nothing but that one emotion and doesn't want to learn of anymore.
He's a boy full of emotions that he wishes he can control. He's vulnerable and too fragile to be around...
I woke up sore and remembered everything that happened yesterday. I dragged my body to the shower and cleaned myself. I cleaned up the mess I made before my grandmother comes in here and gets a heart attack. Jimin likes me? But why? And why did I get these weird feelings when he touched me and held me? Do I like him? I've never felt that before. Once I was done getting ready, I headed out to school.
The whole day I was stuck in my own head. I wasn't focused on anything around me. I thought about Jimin. Do I really like him back? Do I even know if I'm capable of that? Why is this happening all of a sudden? Then I felt a light tug on my sleeve. I turned around and flinched as I saw Jimin's perfect face. He smiled brightly, I've never seen him smile so big. His teeth were pearly white and perfect just like all of him. "Hi." I cocked my head to the side. I felt his hand slide down to mine and intertwined them, fitting perfectly. Before I could pull away, I heard a deep voice talk.
"Awe look at the two freaks. The little Asian girl and the freakish he-she." I clenched my jaw and my free hand balled into a fist while the other gripped Jimin's. Jimin tried to pull me away from the boy. But I stalked forward, never letting go of his hand, and faced the boy.
"You didn't have enough, did you?" I spoke through clenched teeth. He backed away a bit smirking as I stalked forward.
"Rose, let's just go. Leave it-"
"I'm not a coward like you, Jimin." The boy's smirk grew at my comment. I glared at him and he flinched. When Jimin rubbed his thumb on my hand, I calmed down. For the first time, I actually calmed down without hurting someone. I backed away with Jimin and let him lead us away. But then, I felt a pain on the back of my head. A hand gripped my hair as I almost fell. Jimin caught me and held me up. It felt like someone threw fuel onto my already flaming blood. I saw red, as soon as I was about to lash out, Jimin pushed me back with one arm and rushed to the boy. My eyes widened as he dropped him to the ground and threw powerful punches to him. I was shocked. I've never seen him that way. The boys lip busted open and I heard a crack, I'm pretty sure his nose broke. The boy was too shocked to react but when he did, he was no match for Jimin's strength. When I saw the boy had knocked out and Jimin was still in rage hitting him, I walked towards him and grabbed his shoulders. I pulled him off with all my strength and he stood up breathing rapidly. He slowly came back to reality.
"R-rose." This is the first time he stood up to a bully. I grabbed his hand and ran out of the school. I lead us into a bathroom in the park we ended up at and began to wash his hands. His hands were trembling, his whole body was. His breathing increased, "Rose."
"Yeah?" I was still in shock.
"I-I think I'm gonna h-have another episode." Episode? What's that? Is that what he had last time when I yelled at him? He started to breathe harder, as if he was suffocating. Tears ran down his face as he shook his head. Fear was in his eyes, that I can recognize. "I-I... hurt. I hurt," I've seen this before, it's happening again. I dried his hands and carefully and awkwardly cupped his face.
"Hey, hey, Jimin. Look at me," his frantic eyes finally settled on mine, " what you did was okay. It was amazing actually," I mumbled the last part.
His brows furrowed, "How is hurting someone amazing?"
"Because you actually stood up for yourself. For someone with anxiety, that's a pretty big deal." I smiled, a real genuine smile. I haven't smiled like this in a really long time. He smiled too. He's calming down now. "And... thank you. You also stood up for me, I think? No one has ever done that." Fucking awkward. He leaned in and my eyes widened, he's not going to kiss me is he? A tingling feeling spread throughout my body as his soft plump pink lips kissed my forehead gently. I felt light, like I was floating and it was just a kiss on my forehead. A new feeling coursed through my veins. It was foreign. Electricity and warmth spread through me and I felt like I was awakened. Is this what it feels like to fall for someone? God, I'm doomed. He rested his forehead on mine.
"Rosie, I did that for you." My eyes snapped up to him only to see his eyes closed. His eyelashes were kissing his cheeks beautifully.
"I could've done it myself-"
"I know," he whispered, eyes still closed, "but I wasn't just protecting you from him, I was protecting you from yourself." His fingers lightly touched my scars. Then I realized, he did it because he knew I'd hurt myself for hurting someone else. My heart wanted to beat out of my chest by now. Am I dreaming?
I've been avoiding Park Jimin for three days now. I haven't been going to school either or taking my medication. It was just one of those weeks. The terrible ones. The ones where I absolutely hate myself. I hate everything. I'm tired of everything. Walking down this busy street, I'm wondering how everyone's life is. How does it feel to be normal? How does it feel to never feel pain on your wrists or thighs from your punishments? How does it feel to not see a monster staring back at you? How does it feel to have a silenced mind? Why can't I be normal? Someone called out my name. I turned to see Lily running towards me with a huge smile on her face. "Hey, where have you been? I've been looking for you."
"Were you? Or were you too busy living a perfect life. I know you weren't looking for me, you were just fucking your boyfriend." Her smile fell and she stared at me in disbelief.
"W-what?" She stepped towards me, trying to grab my hand but I pushed her away.
"Get away from me bitch. You know, you're so fucking annoying. Always trying to fix me. I don't need to be annoyed and reminded everyday that I'm not as perfect as you."
"Rose please. Calm down this isn't-"
"Don't tell me to calm down and don't tell me this isn't me cause this is exactly what I was born into! So just fuck off, I never liked you anyways." She trapped me in her embrace and repeated for me to calm down. I pushed her away and dropped her to the ground. I gripped her hair and landed multiple punches to her face. I couldn't think straight, all I knew was that I had so much anger that I needed to let out.
"Rosie!" I heard Jimin's silky voice call out. I felt his all too familiar hand grab my shoulder and pull me off her. My mind and heart wanted to stop and respond to him, but my body reacted differently. I was too angry. He stammered back, struggling to control me. I landed a punch so hard that he fell to the ground and hit his head on the concrete ground. I gasped.
"J-jimin. Oh god, what did I do!" I gripped my hair in frustration. I fell to my knees and shook him. I turned to Lily and saw her face bruising and bleeding as she cried. "Lily! Please don't leave me!" She stopped but didn't turn around. "Please, I need you. I... I can't lose... lose you too." Then, I watched her leave. Tears ran down my face as I tried to wake up Jimin. "Please wake up, Jiminie. Please. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I didn't... I didn't mean it." He didn't move. I yelled out for someone to call the ambulance. They arrived and took him to the hospital.
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A/N: Another update. Jimin finally defended himself! I love how innocent they are. Well next update will be tomorrow, this story is really short so it's already coming to an end but it will continue on a second part. That one is much longer.
