WARNING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS ARE IN THIS CHAPTER.
You lay in your bed crying sobbing still frozen about what happened in the train today.
You've been glum all this weekend only getting up to go say hi to Jin and all of bangtan then going back and staying there for the whole rest of the day.
Jungkook had gotten worried about you because of what happened it had ruined you. He was worried to the point where he wouldn't get any sleep either.
Bambam didn't know any of this. You hadn't contacted him in days he thought he had done something wrong.
He felt the need to go see you so he did.
Once he was there he saw Jimin come out of his apartment with a trash bag in his hand.
"Hey is Y/N in there?" Bambam asks
"No she's in her apartment,but I think she wants to be alone right now." Jimin said with a down face.
"What did you do to her!!" Bambam says while walking up on jimin.
Bambam was rather taller then Jimin.
"I didn't do anything but I suggest you get out of my way and leave her alone if she hasn't told you then she's not ready or is still hurt" jimin said pushing bambam aside.
"What if I don't move I'm sure she's in there you probably want to keep her to yourself and don't want me to see her what did I do." Bambam said.
"It has nothing to do with you so leave" jimin adds
"NO I WANT TO SEE HER WHAT HAPPENED Y/N!" Bambam says loudly.
You hear Bambams voice from outside the hall.
Bangtan hears it too.
Bangtan and you all run outside.
Once you do you see bangtan out there too they look at you. You just give them a worried face.
Bambam then grabs jimin from the shirt.
Jungkook goes up to bambam and pulls him off of jimin.
"What is wrong with you get off of him don't ever touch him again!" Jungkook screams.
"So ure the one that stole her away from me!! You are the one who took her for yourself!!" Bambam says
"That has nothing to do with you so CAN YOU JUST GET WHATEVER YOU WERE GONNA GET AND LEAVE!" Jungkook screams. As he pushes Jimin behind him to Yoongi's arms.
"FINE I WILL" Bambam says loudly
As he notices you outside your door and grabs your hand and drags you with him.
" W-WHAT ARE YOU DOING LET GO OF ME! D-DONT TOUCH ME!!!" You scream as he lets you go and you run to Jungkook and jimins arms.
"IS THAT WHY YOU HAVENT CALLED OR TEXTED BECUZ YOUVE LOST ALL INTREST IN ME YOU LIKE THESE BITCHES" Bambam screams
"No no no YOU DONT UNDERSTAND ILL TALK WITH U LATERJUST LEAVE. ME. ALONE.!!!!!" You scream tears falling down your cheeks.
"P-please...just leave...I swear I'll explain later." You say as you fall onto your knees and sob.
"I-I'm sorry Im sorry i caused all this mess I'm sorry I haven't been talking to you I'm sorry for everything I've caused."you say as Jungkook tries to get you up from the floor.
As so fell down bambams eyes saddened
"please don't say sorry I'm the one that's sorry,I'm so sorry Y/N I don't even deserve your love from what I've done to you and your friends right now..." Bambam said.
"I'm sorry I can't be here..." you say a you run back to your apartment Jungkook tries to stop you but jimin pats his shoulder and says
"let her go she needs time."
As you run into your apartment a lot of emotions are going through your head. You feel depressed angry at yourself angry at them. You feel useless,unneeded.
You wanted to stop the pain you had gotten from doing that to them. You wanted to stop being a burden to other people. Then you started thinking about Jonah and then your mind shut down all of your mind just sit down completely.then you felt a dark feeling in your heart hearing in your head " you don't deserve their love" "you shouldn't be alive you've caused too much of a nuisance already" " you should kill yourself that's how you'll get the pain out the pain of a burden that you've caused to them...JUST DIE"
The darkness in your heart filled your whole body. Your whole mind you whole everything,it controlled your every move. You had gone to your bathroom and took a razor out of the pack that you had.
Jungkooks POV
He felt something he felt like you were in danger he felt like you were gonna do something and at first he thought it was nothing until he heard you scream. He ran to you apartment he searched everywhere to find you in the bathroom you had scratched your wrist with the razor you had in your hand. He ran up to you
"Y/N! No please stop don't do that WHAT DID I SAY DONT DO THAT DONT" he said as he took the razor out of your hand and threw it across the bathroom floor tears dripping everywhere.
He couldn't see anything in your eyes they were dark. He didn't know what to do but he took a towel wet it and put it on your wrist. He really didn't want to lose you even if it was just a scratch. "I'm sorry I couldn't protect you I'm sorry I couldn't stop the feeling you had,but please don't DONT ever do this again. He only saw darkness in your eyes he didn't believe that was the Cherie you that laughed at everything he said. "You've been depressed and you didn't tell me" he told himself. As he looked at your dark soulless eyes.
He had a feeling that wasn't the first time in a long time so he checked both of your wrist and they were both scratched up with marks.
He cried. He didn't know what to do but he just took you into his arms. I don't want you to feel that way anymore. Not with me not anymore. Please just...please don't ever do this again.
Y/N's POV
Why does he care about me why. All I've done is mess with his feeling becuz I like bambam as much too. Why am I such a burden to the world. I can't see anything I can only hear his words. He gives me light he gives me everything. But all I do is hurt him. I'm sorry. I see his face. He-he's crying I-I made him cry...
You grab jungkooks face then say "I-I'm so sorry I'm a burden to your life I'm sorry for making you worry I'm sorry for everything" you had said when you hug Jungkook. Him sobbing on your shoulders. "You ARENT a burden don't ever say that you are the best light in my life that has ever happened to me. So please don't do this again. I don't want to lose you. And don't let the darkness in your heart take over the beautiful girl you are inside ok.."he says as he kissed your cheek and said "I love you" eyes filled with tears.
TBC...
If any of you are going through any depression don't solve it with how Y/N did in the chapter talk to someone like your bff or a close family member just like Jungkook said don't let the darkness in your heart take over the beautiful girl/Boy you are •3•
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FanfictionAuthor: HI OMG SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE READ THIS. please note that I wrote this 2 years ago ,where I literally had no idea how to write a ff. this was my first one ever 💀. Please disregard any spelling errors or bad grammar, my bad you guys. Anyways I...
