Beyond The Curtains (Under Editing)

A Childs Needs

I lived in the house for 11 years with my mom and dad before they got divorced

Then my step mom moved in causing my mom moved in downstairs

I didn't really understand

When my mom moved out she moved in with my aunt

That was hell

I had to be with my mom two days out of the week and was with her every other weekend

But my moms house has always been more welcoming than my dads once she had moved.

It has been five years since my mom moved out

Being about three years since my sister moved out of the seemingly unwelcoming house and in with my mom

I still live with my dad and step mom half the week

They may not be married but they have been sleeping in the same bed for five years

My mom has moved on into her own house now with my sister following

She opened her house to my grandmother, whose presence was loud

My dad's house is cold dark and unwelcoming

I avoid having friends over because it is just that unwelcoming

I have tried so hard to make my room as happy as I could

Making it cozy looking and inviting, but that never worked

I can't do anything while I'm in this prison

I can't leave my room unless I am leaving the house or my dad gets home

I can't leave the house unless I call my dad

But if I call my dad then he will get annoyed, and I don't want him to be upset with me

So I am stuck is this prison for two days in a row at least once a week

I don't eat unless told to because I have grown tired of asking for food.

I understand it is unhealthy

I don't talk at all ever unless it's to ask for something or to ask how my dads day was.

No one else gave me the time of day

I can't decide which house I feel at home in

The one where I am a slave to my grandmothers every need

Or the one where my privacy is non existent

I want a place where I can have my own bubble and a childhood I have never had.

I want a place where I don't have to make all the decisions and be the adult

I'm not even 16 yet

Is that too much to ask for?

Maybe? Maybe not... I just want to have a place where I can be loved for being who I really am

I want a place where I am not going to be called fat or a fucking waste a space!

...I just want a home where they protect me

Where they are patient with who I am

Where the acknowledge my existence

Where I get what every child should deserve

But I guess this is too much to ask for right?

Is it really?

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Hello my lovlies

So what I am thinking about is how I'm going to update so its going to every once a week sometimes twice and i now have a editor so grammer should be getting better
Other than that I want you to know that if you arnt accepted I will accept you because you are all beautiful and unique and you deserve love protection acceptence you guys are so worthy of anything and everything that is good i love you all...

Have a good night/day/evening lovelies.