Beyond The Curtains (Under Editing)

jealousy

It hits me and ruins my ache for food, and I dont care that I havent eaten for a while.

I mean i'm glad they are here together, but in the back of my head it tells me

'This is your time with him not hers'

You cant help but think it though.

Jealousy is an ugly emotion we feel.

You want him to hug you not her.

You need him to hug you.

Thats all you want....

Jealousy is an ugly emotion we all feel.

But he wont, and I get so fucking pissed off because my only company is IT.

IT isn't even supose to be near you by court order your therapist tells you call the police..

I cant do that... he wants IT there 

So I'll deal with the anxiety that rises. When IT says something, that no one else relizes had a double meaning to it.

It was supose to be me and him against the world, just us escaping to the mountiens together.

now IT and her are going to come up more. Im gald really..

But Jealousy is an emotion that I feel

I want them to connect... I pushed them to connect.... but now, now I am all alone he completly ignored me....I'm hurting.... why wont he just protect me and hug me....

Thats all I need; my daddy's hug. A real one that he gave her.

It was supose to be me and my dad against the world. Escaping to the mountines

Jealousy is an ugly emotion we all feel.

That I feel.