Second chance mate-How can I prove myself to you?

Chapter 14: I'm sorry."

Josh POV
He told me all about his past, his mate dieing in childbirth, his sister being missing and about the guy who was leaning on him. That the guy, Mark, managed to break his leg in three places and is using him as a crutch basically. Man I feel so bad. I judged him way to early. Will he hate me for it? I hope not. "I-I'm sorry."

"For what?"

"Judging you, without knowing the story."

"Anyone would've, heck if I'd seen you in the same position as you had seen me. I would have assumed you were a happy family."

I smiled at him. He knows what to say to make me not feel bad about myself. It was then I realised that we didn't even know each other's name. "My names Josh, by the way."

"Nathaniel. Does this mean you'll give me a chance, Josh?" Nathaniel  I like it. But it's so long. He needs a nickname.

"I'll try but I have to warn you I have trust issues." I responded with. Hmmmm maybe Nat.

"That's okay I'm willing to work through it with you. Though would you mind me asking why you have trust issues?" Should I tell him. He did tell me about his life and first mate. It is only fair.

After much hesitation I answered
"My first mate.....She......She rejected me......I was on guard duty and she was in one of the cells...She fed me this sob story about how her dad beat her and would kill her if she didn't become Luna....She said that the Alpha got mad and locked her up... She was crying...and I.....I couldn't just leave her like that. So I unlocked the door and walked over to her. She rejected me before I could even touch her. I blacked out when she locked me in. I woke up in the hospital hours later. The Alpha came in an talked to me. Told me she lied to me. She never even met her father. She's the reason the Luna's dead and the Alphas depressed." I didn't even realise I'd started crying until Nat pulled me into a hug. As soon as I was in his arms I broke down. Nat didn't say anything just pulled me closer. I hope I've made the right decision in trusting him. I won't be able to take it if he were to cheat or reject me.

Kata's POV
"Do you remember me?" I shake my head and he looks on the verge of tears. I do to, to be honest.

He broke down. He was a sobbing mess. I crouched down and move Charlie to one arm as I wrapped the other around him. I wish I remembered him. I really do. I want to know what my life was like here. I want to know all about my baby girl.

"Why are you here? If you don't remember me." It hurts to see him like this.

"Because I knew you where out there somewhere thinking I was dead. Your my mate and I would've searched everywhere for you."

"How did you know I was there?"

"It'll be easier if I tell you everything so you might want to sit down somewhere more comfortable and get the people outside."

"There's people outside?"

"My family."

"Your family."

"Yeah, that'll be part of the explanation."

"Okay, will do it in the lounge room. Follow me." He slowly got up and started walking down the hallway. I stood up and grabbed Avery's hand before following along behind him. Once we got to the large lounge room. I sent Avery to bring in everyone. Once she left I told him everything. How he forced a witch to erase my memory and get rid of my mark and that's why I couldn't remember my family, and now why I can't remember him. I told him how my family saved me, the dream and how I searched for him. Halfway through my explanation everyone walked in, except my brother. Probably still talking to his mate.

"So you only don't remember anything between the times he had you?"

"No, I wish I did remember."

"I don't." He whispers under his breath. I almost didn't hear him.

"Why?" He snaps his head up to look at me shocked.

"Can I answer that in private?" He asks. Looking at everyone now looking at him. I nod and pass Charlie off to my dad asking him to watch him. I stand up and wait for Al to lead the way. He takes the hint and gets of the couch. He starts walking down a hallway and we end up in front of a door. He opened it revealing a bedroom. His I'm assuming.

"You have to understand. I don't want you to hate me. Please you have to believe what I'm about to tell you."

"I'll try."

"The reason he got you is cause you ran out, because you saw something. I'm going to tell you what I'm pretty sure you saw. Then I'm going to tell you my side. Okay? Please try and understand. Try to stay calm until you can hear everything I have to say. Please promise me you'll try?"

"I promise I'll try to be understanding"

"Okay, so I marked you the night before. So you were exhausted and slept till like lunch. You would've woken up and gone to my office to see me kissing a girl, and that's when you ran." He stopped, probably trying to see if I was calm, and I was trying my absolute hardest to stay calm. I needed to hear his side. He looked so broken trying to explain this. He even flinched and had a disgusted look when he said I saw him kissing another girl.

"Continue."

"Okay, um well, my side. I knew you needed the sleep and I needed to catch up on some pack work I had neglected. I went into my office around eight in the morning did my work. I was half done and was going to wake you up, cause I noticed the time. The pack slut walked into my office only she looked like she was going to break down. I may not like her but she's was still a member of my pack, so I had to try and help at least. She then started rambling on about how she.... how she l-loved me. I refused her and told her to leave. I smelt your scent coming closer to my office. Then out of nowhere she practically pounced on me slamming her lips on mine. As soon as I processed what was happening I through her off me and onto the other side of the room. That's when your friends came in telling me you ran outside crying. I got them to lock the slut up and ran after you. By time I got to you, you were knocked out and he was hovering over you. I tried to help, but I didn't see his friends or what ever they were, they grabbed me from behind and prevented me from helping you. Then they gabbed a sedative into me. The last time I saw you was when you were being taken away from me. I'm kind of glad you don't remember cause I don't think you would've come back. I'm a screw up and I completely understand if you were to leave now. I'm a terrible mate... I couldn't even protect you." By now he was sobbing and breaking down. Does he really think I'm going to leave him? It wasn't his fault. None of this was. I wrap my arms around him and pull him into a hug.

"Sssshhh. I'm not leaving. It wasn't your fault. None of this was."

"Yes it was. I-I didn't have the border protected well enough and they got in and out with you. I'm a terrible mate and an even worse Alpha. Why would you stay?"

"Cause you're fuckin perfect to me."