Not The Victim

Chapter 2 ✧

✧ Chapter 2

Boy talk

Finally lunch. I usually brought a lunch to school except for the first day because they always have tacos and their tacos are sent from heaven! School food is gross trust me I know, but the tacos are the one thing they make thats is just perfect.

Once I walked into the cafeteria i immediately met up with my best friend, Kate. Kate was like my other half we do everything together. I don't usually play a part when I'm with her. I'm just whatever. But I guess I don't really tell her everything. But sometimes she can be so air headed i was to strangle her! It sounds horrible but I love her. I really do love her. I don't know who id be without my best friend. Shes a simple looking girl with a crazy cool personality though. She has short pale blonde hair that blends perfectly with her pale skin and light brown eyes. Shes like one inch taller than me and I'm pretty short for my age. Well I think so at least.

We sat down near a group of girls we always sit by. Most of them are my friends but not like having sleep over friends just the ones that I actually bother to talk to and they think I'm funny. My other best friend Laney sits across from Kate and I. Once we have our spots saved we get in line.

Laney and Kate are a lot alike and very different. Laney is sometimes loud and super crazy and obnoxious like I can never get tired of her. But she also can get sad and super self conscious when shes in a bad mood.

"GUYS guess what!?" Laney said with a giant smile.

"What!?" I laughed.

"Okay!" She half whispered half yelled.

"Well I was talking to Riley and he kept like flirting with me but I don't think he likes me."

Riley is one of those boys everyone knows. But like not in a popular guy way in a way where he's just really different and just everyone knows him and is friends with him.

"Ask him!" Kate said.

"Dude no she cant just 'ask him'! Kay Laney what you have to do is just flirt with him and try to get him away from other girls so you can lure him into your sexyness to where he'll have to love you or he'll die." I joked.

"What if I'm to sexy for him."

"That is very true." I said, pretending to be concerned.

"Should I get lettuce on my taco?" Kate asked.

"I don't know, I'm not. Vegetables are the enemy remember?"

Once everyone was at our table there were about eight girls. Since it was the first day of course everyone had crazy stuff to talk about unlike me. Like i don't really get out much. Cool stuff happens to me, but Kate is usually the only one who finds it interesting. Even she probably doesn't care though. But I never say anything because she wont change.

Our school is just like any other. Our tables are of course separated by popularity. Not on purpose though. Girls like Jenna sit in the back with clones exactly like her. And boys the same pretty much. Oh you know the groups. The smart people at one table, the weird kids that still play bey blade at another, the wannabe rebellious kids at another table. Its pretty basic. I guess I sit at the 'cool but single girls' table. Yeah I'd say I was kinda cool because even Jenna decided to talk to me.

When I was homeschooled lunch was the one thing I hated. I always liked lunch in real school because its always nice to watch other people having fun with their friends. I don't know. I'm so pathetic. (She said still watching other people at lunch)

"OH MY GOD EVERLY!" Shouted Kate at a tone that the whole cafeteria was likely to hear.

"YES KATE!?" I shouted just as loud.

"Okay so remember Davis from 8th grade?"

"Ugh yes I remember Davis."

Davis was a boy a year older than me that I really liked and he really liked me too at the time. We were on the verge of becoming an item before I soon realized he was a total ass hat. Well if you consider 'soon' seven months... But the thing is, I had never met him in person. And well, I have a quirk.

See I cannot and no matter how much i truly want to I CANNOT BE WITH SOMEONE I HAVE NEVER MET IN PERSON. And oh god I wanted it. I wanted it so bad. I wanted to love him because he was so perfect to me. But the fact that I had never had a conversation with him that wasn't mobile... I just couldn't love him.

Sure id done it a million times! Fallen for a guy threw texts. And oh shocker! They never worked out. After Davis i swore I would never do that again. And so far I haven't. Well. I mean. There is one boy I'd risk it for. *cough* slut *cough* I know I like way to many boys. But shut up I get to explain this one and you're going to listen.

So um blah blah blah I fell head over heels for someone who's name I didn't know. (Though of course I found him in the yearbooks because I'm creepy) his name was Matthew. I've tried talking to him over 5000000000 times but, well, he's never answered (talking to him threw text because I get nervous) well one time he called me hot. Actually he wasn't talking about me. But he said he thought it was me, so, yeah.

ANYWAY um yeah Matthew also moved so that ruined my life. But I also like this other guy. Wow It sounds worse than it is I swear. Um yeah, Anderson. He's super weird and like best friends with Riley who, if you remember, is the one Laney was talking about.

So much boy talk i think I have a headache! Oh yeah thats another weird fact about me, I almost 24/7 have a headache. I told Kate and she said she thought I might have a migraine but I don't know. Just doesn't seem like it. And- oh yeah Kate was trying to talk to me about Davis!

"Well I saw im in the hall this morning and I like gave him a death glare, you know? And he looked at me really weird and I started laughing really hard. So your welcome."

I rolled my eyes, "yes thank you!" I said laughing.

Thank you for giving him the satisfaction that he effected me goddamnit. I thought.

I don't really understand why she thought to tell me that but I didn't really care its just- i don't know I just didn't care at all about anything that had to so with Davis. But hey, it makes an okay chapter filler.

So I did see Davis in the hall but I don't like to give people satisfaction so of course I did the little thing where I just hold my head high look at superior because um I am to him.

So yeah a good way to feel good about yourself is to make sure that you are superior and super fantastic, at least in your mind. If you believe it, so will everyone else.