Not The Victim

Chapter 5

I've made eye contact with Davis twice today things are really picking up, I might even change my relationship status on Facebook. I'm sorry but its just so strange what with our "past"?

        Its a Friday so Laney and Kate come over and spend the night.

        "So what the crap is going on with Davis?" Laney said with extreme facial expressions.

        "I don't know." I answered truthfully.

        I mean, really, I don't know, i have thought about it. 

        "I swear to god if you guys start talking again and he breaks your fucking heart-"

        "That's not going to happen Kate." 

        "I know but he's just such a dick..."

        "I know, I agree!" I said. Well I don't think he's that big of a dick but whatever I'll go with it.

        "Okay but what about Anderson?" Laney asked. Laney has always been into our "relationship" or whatever you might call it. She kind of helped me talk to him...well if you call yelling at him when he was talking to other girls, helping, then sure!

        "I don't know about that either?" please get off the subject you guys are making me feel dumb.

        "huh...Where are your cotton balls?" Laney asked as she pulled open my drawer of nail polish.

        "Same place they always are dude." I said pointing to the Bathroom across the hall.

        "Im hungry." Kate said, using my blush to redden her pale cheeks. Damn I want her skin tone don't even get me started on that.

        "Mom is making dinner chill."  I normally didn't tell people too chill or chill out but Davis says it to me all the time so...

        "okie." she said.

        The rest of the night consisted of regular stereotypical girl things. We did each others makeup blindfolded and we did that thing where we get in a circle and gossip. Its funny because its not like we say "Okay everyone huddle up its time to talk shit" it just kind of happens and I think its beautiful. I texted Davis the whole time too heheh. We also threw shit at each other, took selfies, gossiped a little more, showed each other our favorite vines and eventually we fell asleep. In really awkward positions I might add. Laney was curled up in the corner with Kate's head to her back and i was laying completely straight  on the very edge. You can only imagine how much complaining there was in the morning, but I didn't mind.

        Once we were all up and I was tired of the complaining we left my room and got food. Sitting at the table eating our waffles we didn't have much to say due to the awkwardness of being around my mom. I don't really know why but my mother just has a way of making people nervous. She honestly makes me nervous sometimes except shes my mom so we just have a chill connection. I tell her everything mostly, besides Davis. But i told her about Anderson and she always made jokes about it. There are just times where shes so sarcastic i just isn't funny anymore and it hurts my feelings. Oh whatever i sound emo or something "meh my parents don't undersTAND" ha i love myself.

        Once Kate and Laney were gone I had the rest of the day to myself and as usual productivity was pushed to the side as i had more important things to do. I pulled out my phone and texted Davis. yeah i know I'm pathetic but its not like I was only texting him. I was on tumblr too, hitting reblog! Anyway, next Friday seems to be really close and I'm nervous. okay not that close its only saturday. six days. and five of those i'll have to see him the halls. Sometimes I like making eye contact because its so awkward but I don't care. He's talked about it before saying it was awkward and I should just say hi. Like okay wOAH THERE, this ain't some perfect world where I can actually conjure the courage to make eye contact aND TALK AT THE SAME TIME. Common Davis this is reality were talking about.