Disarray

Superstar - Noam Dar (part 4 of 18)

"Cass! You're home!" Chad says once he looks up from his chair in the living area. I smile. Renee convinced me to go home for a day or two so I can recharge. To unstress me out, but it only meant added stress and guilt for me. I wish I didn't decide to get on that plane and go through with it.

"Yeah, but only for tonight. I leave in the morning." I say to him. He nods, helping me with my bags even though I could carry them myself.

"If I knew you were coming home, I would've made sure to do something special." He tells me.

"I texted, but whatever," I state. I felt myself start to get a little upset about him wanting to do something nice. I texted him last night after my encounter with Dar, but I guess he wasn't bothered to look at it.

"Oh," He says. I shake my head.

"Forget it. It's fine." I say painting on a smile.

"Yeah, but I feel bad. Let me go and get something." He says as he starts walking away assumably to go put on his shoes.

"You leaving means we won't spend much time together," I deadpan, getting more annoyed. It's such a small, nice thing he's trying to do, but it's still upsetting me. I don't understand it.

"It'll only take 10 minutes." He says.

"Okay. Fine. Whatever." I say sitting down on the couch. Can't he just stay here? I mean were married after all. He doesn't need to buy me things as if this is fucking high school.

I would never leave him.

"Don't be like that." He says sitting next to me. He rests his head on my shoulder lovingly.

"Like what?" I question.

"Mad. I want to do something nice for my wife who's never here with me." He says sweetly.

"Are you practically saying that I'm a bad wife?" I question highly offended. He sighs, realizing he's getting nowhere with me.

"Listen, you're a perfect wife. You're everything I've ever wanted in life." He states with a smile caressing my cheek. I smile feeling whatever petty anger melt away. God, I hate what Noam's done to me. It's almost as if he's controlling my emotions.

Chad makes sure I am okay, he makes me feel like a princess. He is sweet, and gentle, and caring. Noam on the other hand, he is passionate and doesn't care about much other than sleeping with me. He is the ultimate bad boy, maybe it's his downfall or maybe it is the thing that draws me in the most.

"Sorry, I'm just scared that one day you'll leave me," I state. Or maybe I was scared that I'd leave him. If we ever were to break up, I know there will always be part of me that loves him. No matter what.

"Me leave you? I worry about you leaving me. You've got all the attractive guys you work with. I can't keep up with the great things you're doing in life." He says honestly.

"Most those guys...just like me are married. If not married in very serious relationships." I state. I just manage to get involved with one of the few men on the roster who wasn't married or in a serious relationship.

"That doesn't mean people don't cheat." He says. I tense up a bit. Cheat? Did he know? He couldn't know. It was probably just a statement.

"Yeah, those people are absolutely crazy if they can just cheat on their partner. For nothing." I state shifting uncomfortably.