princess leia | hemmings

15 - sunscreen

one month later

its been a while, and ever since it was luke & daisy's date it hasnt gotten better. well for me, for them it was perfect.

the two of course began dating and now im always stuck seeing him. and guess what? he still never asked me if we were gonna talk about whatever he wanted to. he acted as if nothing ever happened between us.

it also hasnt helped that my feelings for him have just gotten stronger. and i have begun to feel more and more shitty and insecure about myself. whenever i think about why luke chose daisy over me, i always find myself believing its because daisy's pretty much perfect. im not.

my life is messy and complicated and i dont care how i dress or if i forgot to put makeup on. daisy's had a normal teenage girl life. her family was close, they had a beautiful home, she got literally almost everything she wanted & boys drooled over her as much as she did over them.

it was a fabulous ninety degrees outside but luckily for me (not really) i was going to a bon fire daisy set up. i didnt want to go but oh well.

i wore a xl large tshirt that had star wars (ironic huh?) on it, my shorts and bikini top underneath because it was practically a dress on me, my flip flops and sunnies with my hair up in a messy bun. i grabbed my bag with beach stuff and walked downstairs.

"mom im leaving." i waved at her as she sat on the couch, trying to play mario kart with the little ones.

"okay leia, have fun. love you." she called waving back as i opened the door and heading out. the warm heat smacked me in the face and i felt myself almost instantly sweating.

i groaned, closing the door behind me and walked to my car. i threw my stuff in the back and drove to michaels since i was picking him up.

as i drove, sweet creature by harry styles played softly as i stared at the road.

'sweet creature, we're running through the garden
oh, where nothing bothered us
but we're still young
i always think about you and how we dont speak enough'

i took a deep breath, trying not to cry because songs like this hit me right in the heart. im just always emotional now and i hate it. when there was a stop sign, i wiped my eyes quickly before turning down to michaels neighborhood. once i was in front of his house, i honked.

a few minuets later he came running out, looking pasty as ever. "are you gonna get a tan mike?" i laughed as he climbed in the car.

"if i dont get sun burnt." he said and gave me a smile.

"crystal didnt want to come?" i asked as we pulled away from his house and now headed toward the beach.

"she said she had some family party or something." he shrugged as he put on shades too, grabbing my phone to change the music. "jesus leia, all you listen to is sad songs."

michael and crystal were now dating too. she was so cute and kind, i adored her as much as michael. they were honestly the cutest couple to exist.

"what do you expect? im always sad." i snored.

"whatever." mike changed it to the beatles, singing annoyingly loud to here comes the sun.

"shut up michael." i laughed, covering his mouth but he licked it, making me scream and hit his chest. "nasty boy."

"thats right." he nodded and i sighed, continuing to listen to him rape my ears with his off key singing.

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