The Blind Wallflower

III - "I'm Fine"

*WARNING: This chapter may contains trigger scenes for some of you and foul language, so if you're not comfortable with something like abuse or s-harassment, please skip. However, those scenes are not detailed, so don't worry. ENJOY !

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They say your demons are going to eat the light within you.
They don't know all my life I've been hugging darkness like a nice pillow.
I begged my demons to leave me alone,

"Go away" I said

I screamed at them helpless "people are afraid to watch you grow"

They whispered "If we left who's going to accompany you"

No one...

No one beside my dear demons were willing to stay.

With a sad smile and Farewell tears
I sent them away to find the light I've never saw
To become angels for other people hearts.

"Irene love, say hi to your worst nightmare" he whispered in my ear running his disgusting tongue along my earlobe. I felt my whole body shiver in fear and disgust. This sick bastard had the nerve to do something like that. Whatever he does, I won't give him the satisfaction of seeing me break. I'm stronger than this. I tried to take my breath, but his grip was like iron.

"I've seen w-worse" I choked out. He laughed again a very quite laugh as if he's afraid of anyone to hear him. "Oh really! and here I thought you were such a porcelain doll, my bad. Then I won't be too gentle" he whispered the last word ,before his hand left my neck to grab my hair roughly, while his other hand is keeping me still against the wall. I thought my hair would leave my scalp at any moment. God this hurt. "Does your owner know what're you doing up here?" I was referring to my mother trying to provoke him. I felt him go rigid, easy bastard.

He grabbed my chin with both hands and threw the black shades I always wore on the ground ready to slap me. "Your eyes are very light blue almost white" he whispered mesmerized. No one has ever saw my eyes except for Helen, the maids, and my parents. Maybe that's why he was shocked. After a second he composed himself again and he seemed to remember what he was her for. "Too bad your attitude isn't that pretty" he spat.

Carter was so close to my face that I could feel his breath on my face "You think you're better than me bitch just because you're rich. Your mother doesn't love you, she never did, and do you know what has she also told me?" his voice was mocking with a hint of anger in it. "my wife told me how your dear dead father was never home, because he was disgusted with you and buried himself in work to avoid you at any cost. That's how much you're not wanted in this world" his voice was pure evil. He was no different than the others, trying to mess with my head through facts I already knew.

I faked crying at his hurtful words which made him loose his grip on me to laugh at the pathetic me "shush shush, don't cry" he soothed, but his voice was filled with lust. He brought his thumb to whip away my empty tears. "I'll make you feel good" he murmured seductively and his hands traveled down to my waist.

'My chance' I thought. I gathered all my strength to hit him on the face with my elbow. That made the bastard lose his balance then I punch him on the other side of his face. He tried to hold me from behind thinking I won't be able to see him, but his heavy breathing gave him away. I turned around so fast to avoid his arms, and the only thing he grabbed with his dirty hands was thin air. The self-defense lessons Helen had gave me kicked in my system with a blink of an eye and the adrenaline made all of this much easier.