Dorm 34 ✔

CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO

(Vanessa's Pov)

I was right. The dream like state I was in yesterday after Jase and I had crossed all lines, was too good to be true. Not even a day later, I found myself walking in on a familiar sight that oddly stung my stomach.

Jase and Roxy were settled on his bed. They weren't touching, just speaking, sitting a few inches apart. I wasn't sure what came over me, but it felt horrible. It was like this strange battle of envy, confusion, curiosity and dread. A sudden wave of terrible emotions I didn't want to ever embrace me again.

For God sake, all they were doing was talking.

"Sorry," I blurted, capturing their attention. "I-I didn't mean to interrupt you guys or anything."

Watching me with his familiar gaze, I tried my hardest not to blush and also tried my hardest to return a smile to Roxy, that she was offering me. Her eyes were sad and immediately, I found myself thinking back to what Jase told me last night. In seconds, the smile on my lips turned genuine. 

"It's fine," She waved off, slowly turning back around to face Jase. 

His gaze was still set on me. "Yeah. We just finished here, didn't we?"

Frowning at his question, Roxy slowly nodded, I believed against her will and sighed. "Well then, I guess I should get going. Class starts soon."

"Yeah. See you." Jase cleared his throat. Exchanging a glance, Roxy sighed and picked herself up. I flashed her another sympathetic smile, watching as she walked towards the door, her eyes still sad as she closed it behind her.

The intense air didn't fade in the slightest. I slowly dragged my gaze towards Jase, who was already watching me intently. I raised my brows and flashed a small smile. He didn't return it. Almost as if he knew it wasn't real.

Sighing, I walked towards my bed and carelessly dropped my bag near the leg of it. I unbuttoned my shirt slightly, feeling warm from the weather which was beginning to fade once again into spring.

"The heating seems a little too much today," I commented, pulling my hair back into a untidy bun and walked towards my bed. I slipped off my shoes and settled down on my bed. When I glanced over at Jase, I wasn't surprised to see him silently watching me.

"Roxy came to talk to me," He suddenly shared. "I was leaving my business lecture and she waited for it to end. When I stepped out, she came over and told me she needed to speak. I figured it would be best if we went to my - our dorm, knowing it would be faster that way."

Hiding my surprise from the fact he was so open and sharing with what happened, I swallowed. "Oh... What did she want to speak about?"

"She apologized." He nonchalantly stated, as if it didn't affect him in the slightest. "She told me she knew she was in the wrong and knew it was time for a change. She said she was sorry for hurting me and making me suffer, also that she wasn't aware of it."

"Oh," I bit my lip, watching as a battle of emotions passed his face. He looked confused and uncertain. It oddly made my stomach clench.

"I told her okay. I accept her apology and appreciate she could own up to her mistakes." He confessed, eyes still focused on me. "And then you thankfully interrupted... I have a feeling there was more she had left to say."

Oddly, relief flooded my insides. I felt myself relax, not even realizing I was tense in the first place. I wasn't sure why I reacted in that manner. However, I couldn't deny the fact I was explicitly uncomfortable and jealous from the fact they were speaking. I didn't like it. You couldn't blame me. Not only did I feel guilty from what I was doing with Jase, but I found myself strangely possessive over him.