love and hate (5sos) (editing)

Confessions

Charlottes pov

The first night on the bus sucked, I barely slept. I woke up wrapped in ashton's arms. The bus jolted and I banged my head.

"Ah shit." I cussed under my breathe.

"Mmm?" Ashton groaned into my hair and pulled me closer to him. Looks like I'm not getting up anytime soon.

"WAKE UP SLEEPY HEADS!" Michaels voice boomed through the bus.

I laughed to myself knowing the old michael was back, the michael I first ever met running down the corridor at the arena. He's stopped drinking and worked on his anger issues. We talked our whole 'relationship' out. We both decided we actually didn't love each other. We actually didn't have a lot in common.

Me and calum on the other hand never speak, we didn't have anything to say to each other. He nods his head when we pass each other but thats about it.

"Baby do you want any breakfast?" ashton's hushed voice snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Hmm? yeah, okay." I grunted not really pulling off the morning voice like ashton did.

"Come on then" he said sleepily but still sounding adorable. He kissed my cheek and loosed his grip around my waist.

"Let me get dressed first.." I turned to face ashton as we got out of the bunk.

"Okay baby, I'm gonna get into the shower.." He kissed my cheek before heading out of the room to the bathroom.

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"Morning charlie." luke smiled as a grabbed a piece of toast.

"Morning lucas!" I smiled back.

"Lucas?" he laughed almost choking on his toast.

"Yeah, you call me fucking charlie!!" We both were laughing now.

"Guys we have a busy day today. So you need to hurry up.." Calum walked in ruining the atmosphere in the room.

"Alright cal, at least have some breakfast?" ashton held out a piece of toast.

Calum made eye contact with me, but it wasn't a glare it was like he wanted to tell me something.

"No thanks, I'm fine." He walked off the bus leaving us all confused.

"Whats gotten into him lately?" luke questioned the group like we knew the answer.

"I dont know.." Mike sighed and ran his fingers through his hair.

"I'm going to speak to him." I stood up from the table.

"I don't think thats a good idea..." ashton pulled my wrist.

"to bad I'm going" I shook myself out of Ashton's grip and ran off the bus before any of them could stop me.

Ashtons pov

"I don't think thats a good idea.." My voice trailed off, I knew I shouldn't say it but I honestly don't think Calum and charlotte should be alone together.

"To bad I'm going" charlotte stood up and ran off the bus before I could stop her.

"This isn't going to end well.." luke said what we were all thinking, Lottie and cal have bad history.

"I don't want Calum to say something that he will regret." I sighed and walked over to my bunk. I needed sometime alone.

Charlottes pov

"Calum?" I shouted stupidly hoping for a response.

The tour bus was parked in the most scenic place ever, it was in a lay by but it over looked the whole city. The sun was rising and the city was coming alive. My eyes scanned the area until I saw Calum with his head down, sat dangling his legs over the edge of the cliff.

"Calum?" I spoke softly as I sat by him copying him and dangling my legs over the edge too.

"I don't belong here anymore." He sniffed and looked at me, It was strange his were eyes red and cheeks damp from tears. He looked so vulnerable.

"what?" I didn't know what to say, I didnt know what he meant. Belong where?

"Here. With you, with them." He paused for awhile before continuing. "I hate what I did to you charlotte, I loved you, I still do. I love you charlotte." He was looking at me but I never made eye contact, I just stared at my scuffed converse dangling over the edge of the cliff not knowing what to say.

"Calum you can't say that..." I whispered after a long silence.

"Please charlotte, please." His voice whispering too, he begged and continued looking at me.

"Calum.. you..cant..you hurt me too much.." I stuttered the whole time.

"I know but we could still work, I know you love me too.. Say you love me" his voice still begging for me.

"Calum I can't, I love ashton."

"No you don't! You love me! I know you do because I love you." His tears falling again.

"Calum please stop this, you hurt me too much. I loved you." I couldn't stop the tears before they fell down staining my cheeks.

"Charlotte if I could change what happened, I would. If I could rewind so it never happened, I would. but I can't. I love you charlotte."

"I love you Calum." I sobbed.

"What's going on here?" A voice spoke from behind me.