Our love will be forever

Heartbroken 😔 4

I can remember now on that same day , when I was killed on that we have make some plan together on that day as a date to go out 

 he was too late for that date and I didn now why he was that late , when I have to dead there so he did cheat on me , Cordelia must have now that when she kill me 

Did Shu now about that plan with her to do that to me to kill off our baby , was he happy for the baby like me was and that is why he want me to get killed so he can only love her 

I was in the way of them , we was in the way 

-so that must mean where you was at on that day we was on a date planned  Shu.  I bet you was yes of course you was  . you must had lot of fun on that day , when I was losing  your baby didn't you, You was too busy with her from fucking her all night long right Shu huh - I say with being sarcastically  to him about what I am  thinking  of him doing that to me and make up some thing in my head saying that out loud to him 

He did looked at me with shocked that is not true at all , what I have said that about him doing so and he look so hurt by what I said to him but I feel a lot worse for find him with a human girl 

It has just make it more worse by he is been all quiet with me make me think more things like that happen with him and her 

-do you love her more than me and our baby Shu .  Is that why I got killed for you and her to be together. Yes that must be reason why Shu , is . that . Correct  - I am saying again being all very clear honest  to him in mad way this time too 

He now I am saying all this to him , because I was mad and upset with him after what he did to me he would be the same if I did it to him 

He look at me with some tear rolll down on his face , he was going to touch me on the arm to telling me no it is not true that isn what I have said about him doing that to me 

-no of course not . I don love her more than you and our baby, I don want to be with her at all .all  I want is you and you only thing I want in this lifetime please don say that Y/n  ,  I still do love you so much Y/n ,  I don want you to be like this with me please I m sorry  - he is trying to said all of this to calm me down it hasn't worked at all like what he does normally to me bring me comfort , all it is doing is make me more mad at him 

He would have make this work to make me calm down with everything he would have done to me good and bad , but this time I don want him to ever touch me again 

-don touch me with your dirty hands, if you did love me at all let you say you do so much to me  , then why won't  you have done this to us for then huh Shu why- I say with making him let me go by give him  a hard push on his chest

 I can feeling tears want  to coming out now out of my eyes 

I was  crying at this point at him doing this, of course Shu will gone over to me and hug me to make the pain feeling go all away from me to make me feel better than I do right nie 

But He is one who has cause this types of the pain for me and  I do need to be stronger with him in this way I need him to now that I am serious about this 

so I have put my hands on his hard chest to stop him from touching me no more .

I have to push him away from me that is what I want him doing that for me in order to forgive his mistake for our future , but it was very hard thing to do when you caught him cheat on you 

-no don touch me Shu please, I don want you to hurt me again even more then this. i have seeing you just now with a other girl on you here , doing that in front of my eyes and in our favourite place to go in here together . It is hurt me too much to seeing you here right now  . - I said to him to be lots more  stronger and trying not to crying out to him for a hug from him