Things between Shane and I were great. I thought they were. He and I talked almost every minute of the day. He still hadn't kissed me, and it had been almost a month since we've been together. He had to kiss me eventually.
About a week after the Dorney trip, I went to my nana's house to help her pack up her things. She was moving back to Florida to be with my great grandmother. We packed up all the essentials she was going to need. In a couple months, once she was settled, we'd send her all the other stuff she needed. So we sat down and started eating lunch. My mom and my aunt made sandwiches for everyone. I was texting Shane and Anna. I was having pretty normal conversations with the both of them. I was sitting by myself in the living room when I got a pretty weird text.
1 New Message: Anna- Soo You should break up with Shane.
I was so extremely shocked and my stomach hit the ground and I honestly had no clue what to say or even how to respond.
To: Anna- WHAT. Why would you say something like that......?
1 New Message: Anna- I just think you should. I don't think it's gonna work out.
I was so confused. Did she know something that I didn't? I guess there was only one way to find out.
To: Anna- Is there something you're not telling me?
I immediately started typing another message.
To: Shane- Can you tell me why Anna seems to think I should break up with you???
Now I just had to wait. We left my nana's house and I still had no response from either of them. I was sitting in the car on the way home when I finally got an answer.
1 New Message: Shane- umm idk. I didn't say anything to her?
He and I talked about it for a while and he managed to calm me down of these accusations. Anna and I also got into a huge argument. She told me Shane said he was going to break up with me so we fought for a while before she stopped responding. I was anxious and on edge. I was freaking out a lot. I didn't know what to do.
It was Sunday so I had to get ready for school and do my homework. I was in my room doing my math homework while listening to music. I was just about to finish when my phone started to ring. I was getting a call from an unknown number. I picked it up anyway.
"Uhh, hello?" I was remaining cautious.
"Hi. Are you Shane's girlfriend?" It was a girl's voice. Obviously someone who knew Shane.
"Umm, yes. Who is this?"
"I'm a friend of Shane's. He wanted me to tell you that he isn't ready to be in a relationship. He just has too much on his plate at the moment." I accepted at this point that he was going to end the relationship. Everyone was telling me.
"Umm. Okay." I hung up and instantly started crying. I wasn't ready for it to be over. Not yet. He kept telling me that he had no idea how she got my number. That he didn't want this to happen. But I already accepted it. The relationship was over. For the next week, I was emotionless. I felt like I did on the first day of school. I was so numb and didn't know what to do about it. I was trapped in my depression again and nothing was okay anymore.
Two nights later he texted me saying he wanted to call me because we needed to talk. I knew exactly what he was doing. I just didn't want to believe it. I pushed it off and then he called me and I had no choice but to answer it.
"Hey," I tried to sound perky even though I knew it was going to happen.
"Hey so umm I don't know how else to say this but I don't think we should date anymore." He sounded worried. I didn't respond. I let the phone sit next to my ear but I didn't say anything. I was silent. "Are you still there?"
"Oh, uhh, yeah. Yeah, I'm here." I was about to burst. I didn't want him to hear me cry. I held it in. "I'm, I'm gonna go." I was starting to stutter.
"I'm sorry, Mia."
"Yeah, bye." and I hung up without giving him a chance to say anything else. I had just gotten out of the shower and I was naked with a towel wrapped around me. I dropped the phone and fell down to the ground. I hadn't started crying. I was too empty to cry. I laid down and stared at the ceiling. My phone vibrated in my hand.
1 New Message: Shane- I'm sorry. I feel like a monster for doing that. I'm really sorry Mia.
To: Shane- It's fine. I can't talk. I'll see you at school tomorrow. Bye.
I was crying now. I laid back down on the floor and stared at the ceiling for a while. I didn't sleep at all that night.