r.e.m. | ashton irwin | ongoing

three

i lay awake staring at the ceiling, i'm completely exhausted. don't fall asleep i repeat in my mind. i want to cry, i haven't gotten a full nights of sleep in ages. i sit up in my bed and walk over to my window, i slowly and quietly open it, i shudder at the cool fall weather. i put my feet through it and sit down on the roof. as i rub my eyes, i notice one house down a boy on his roof as well. i've seen him a few times, i've never met him but i've always wondered who he is. i stare at the sky for a bit until i notice the boy trying to get my attention, i look over and wave. i carefully scoot over to the other side of the house so i can see him more clearly. he sees what i'm doing and does the same. the houses are close together so i wasn't surprised when i could hear him clearly when he whispered. "hello," i hear him say and notice his pale blue eyes. "hi"

"i'm louis"

"i'm kalani"

"oh, you go to westview right?"

"yea, i think i've seen you," i respond back. "you remind me of a coconut." he blurts out, i burst out laughing. "what?"

"you remind me of a coconut,"

"oh, thanks?"

"what do i remind you of?"

"i don't know, why do i remind you of a coconut?"

"your just coconut ish"

"oh" i say back. we talk for a while about random stuff and i was getting pretty tired. "you look tired, are you sure you shouldn't go to bed?" he says squinting his eyes. "actually, i think your right. goodnight". "goodnight kalani,"

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thursday afternoon.

ashton and i have been talking a lot this past week, whenever i'm with him everything just kind of clicks into place. i feel so safe and warm with him but also so adventurous and fun. as i'm walking into the cafeteria i hear chloe come up to me "you look tired" she says to me as we walk into the cafeteria. "you know how when we were in sixth grade and we used to go on the roof at my house whenever we would have sleepovers?" i say. "that's random but erm yea."

"it kinda became a thing i go on there a lot at night. i've always seem this guy but i just thought he never noticed me so i ignored him, but last night i talked to him and he's really funny and nice."

"so you just talked to a random guy sitting on his roof in the middle of the night?"

"when you put it like that, it sounds bad but he goes here!"

"who is it?"

"louis tomlinson."

"oh him"

"what do you mean him?"

"nothing," she says as we put our stuff down, "i'm gonna go talk to ashton," i say as i see him by the vending machine talking to grayson. as i get closer i hear grayson say, "just don't hurt her." i walk up "hey gray, i missed you.". i say as he hugs me. "what were you guys talking about?" i ask looking at ashton. "we were talking about the science test." ashton nervously says. "oh i took it second period, it's super easy you guys don't need to worry." i respond a little confused. "hey gray!" i hear a voice from behind us say. we turn around and i see louis walking towards us, "oh hey kalani, i has fun last night." he says smirking. grayson looks between the both of us "what do you mean you had fun last night?" grayson speaks up. "we hung out" i say and look up at ashton and see his expression go from calm to jealous as the words came out of my mouth. "also i'm gay" louis says. "what'd you guys do last night?" ashton says, "i met her on my roof." louis says laughing. "what? why were you on his roof? i'm confused." ashton says looking at the two of us. "no i was on my roof, she was on her roof and we just talked on our own roofs because sleep is for the weak." i look at grayson who looks confused. "you guys are weird." he says before walking away with louis. "well i'm gonna go get some lunch." i say turning around. "wait, kalani" he says lightly touching my elbow. "yea?" i ask. "can i erm have your number?" he says looking at his feet. "sure." i say as we exchange phones and type it in. "also if you don't wanna sleep you can always talk to me." he says shyly. every word that came through his mouth sounded perfect and so well thought out making butterfly's flutter in my stomach. "okay".