fire & gasoline ~ jenzie

~the L word~

Johnny

i was kissing mackenzie ziegler. the guy i have admired since i met her. and also the girl i have loved since she told me how she felt and it opened my eyes to how i felt.

i couldn't even imagine leaving this moment right here.

except eventually we pulled away and just sat there. watching the sunset. cuddled up close. little did i know i would make the worst mistake of my life.

without trying to hurt anybody. except i hurt the most important person in my life

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2 weeks later

me and kenz have been doing ok. i was about to text her as i heard a knock on my front door. hoping it was kenz i walked down and opened it.

nadia.

"hey um what are you doing here?"

she has never been to my house, i'm actually confused as to how she knows where i live.

"well i was here to see you." she bats her eyelashes. she is the one girl i never 'dated' or whatever you want to call it. because she was kenzie's best friend.

"why?"

"well i have heard you and kenz are getting quite serious. i can't let that happen."

"you're her best friend i think it would be best if you just left."

"i'm not leaving until i get what i want."

"nadia, gosh what would that be?"

"a kiss. one simple kiss."

"go away, you're her best friend. why do you want to do this to her?"

"i have wanted you since the beginning of high school. but every other girl liked you. then i couldn't do anything about it when i found out kenz liked you. well what she doesn't know won't hurt her right?"

"it will nadia."

"please johnny one kiss. and then we'll act like this whole thing never happened and i'll leave you alone."

"nadia i can't i waited on kenz for too long."

"you can johnny and you will. or i'll tell kenz you're cheating on her with me."

"you wouldn't dare nadia." my teeth were no gritted. i couldn't hold back my anger.

"fine fine. one kiss"

i leaned forward to peck her lips and just as i did i heard the closing of a car door. i jumped back, sort of hoping it was just lauren.

although i already knew it wasn't.

"j-johnny?"

i heard the sad voice of mackenzie and i just broke down.

"nadia i think it was best if you leave. NOW!" i whisper yelled. i was so full of anger.

at nadia.

but mostly at myself.

"oh kenz."

"no johnny you can't call me that and say 'oh kenz'

"i promise that was not what it looked like."

"you promise that you weren't just kissing my best friend."

"i- well i was. but i have an explanation."

"no you don't you practically cheated on me with my best friend."

"we aren't even official."

"yeah you're right johnny we aren't official. was this your whole plan. to just act like you wanted me. i-i have waited since f-fifth grade for you to feel the same way about me. for you to love me like i love you. i hate how much i love you. i hate it because i love you so much, j don't know how to act around you."

i was crying so much. i have wanted to hear those word from her for so long. except i think i have messed up my chance so bad now.

"johnny. i love you so much it is hard for me to be mad at you right now. i can't be mad at you. i don't know how to. i love you johnny orlando. ugh and i hate myself for it!"

i couldn't stand it anymore. i was full on sobbing.

"m-mackenzie frances ziegler. i love you too. i don't even know where to begin my feelings for you. i don't. but i do know how to explain where that went. nadia showed up and made me kiss her. or she was going to lie to you. i couldn't. i got so mad at her i just did it."

"but i love you mackenzie. please forgive me. because if you don't i am not sure what i will do."

she walked over to me slowly and just pulled me into the biggest hug she could muster up. i wrapped my arms around her waist and squeezed her so tight.

i picked her up and carried her into my house, shutting the door behind me. i hope we would be ok.

"johnny let me down."

"not yet we have to get to the couch. i mean unless you want me to drop you on the floor."

i faked dropping her.

"johnny orlando if you don't quit."

all i could do was laugh as i stared into her eyes. i never knew i could be in love with the color brown. but he eyes had so much to show and say. all i could do was stare and try to heat what they had to say.

god, i love you mackenzie frances ziegler.

a/n: wow you know i couldn't split them up.

but sorry for making nadia the clichè bad best friend.

but some tea. haha no there isn't

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