fire & gasoline ~ jenzie

~australia~

Mackenzie

school is officially over and i couldn't be more happy. a/n: major time skip

i was walking into my house and i was immediately attacked by maddie.

"kenz, kenz we're going to australia!"

"hello to you too."

"did you not hear me? we're going to australia!"

"what? for how long!"

i didn't know whether to be happy or sad. i have always wanted to visit australia but i knew it wasn't a family vacation. it was only something for mom's work or maddie's boyfriend jack.

"the rest of the summer."

"uh i can't leave my friends for the whole summer."

"you can and you will."

"no i can't."

"well you better get over it, mom already started packing and you should too, we leave saturday.

we ended school on a wednesday this year. i was so upset. how could they force me to go on a whole sumemr vacation.

what are all the girls going to think? i already made so many plans with them, and with johnny. oh no. i can't leave john all summer.

"i'm going to laur's."

i walked out of the door and immediately hopped into my G. once i pulled up in their driveway i got out and knocked on the door.

the one person i couldn't stand to see right now. when he opened the door tears slipped down my face.

"kenz what's wrong?" he pulled me in for a hug and i just found a spot to cry on his shoulder.

"i'm sorry john. i'm ruining your shirt."

"no you're fine. cry all you want."

i finally ended my crying fest and walked in the house with johnny.

"what happened. you know you can tell me. and if you wanted lauren she's out with hayden."

"oh. sorry. i can come back."

"no it's fine. after all im your boyfriend." he sent a smirk and i let out a few more tears.

"johnny. i'm leaving for the summer."

"what. since when? to where?"

"i'm leaving. since i walked in the house this afternoon. and to australia."

"i can't u-u what about our plans?"

"well i guess they aren't anymore."

"i uh don't know what to say."

"i don't want to say what i have to say."

"what is it mackenzie?"

"i can't stay with you this summer. its just going to hurt the both of us. but i am going to be back and we can start over during senior year. we still both applies to the same colleges. it can still work."

"mackenzie why not?"

"i don't want to hurt the whole time. we will be so many miles apart and i don't want to cry over you the whole time. even though this vacation probably isn't for me, just mom and maddie. i still want to try and have a good time."

"but i can be with you and you can still have a good time in australia."

"no johnny. please please don't make this harder for me."

i was crying again. he is the only person i want to be with. i didn't tell him exactly why i was ending things over the summer. he wouldn't ever want me back.

"that's the last thing i want to do kenz. i just don't understand why we have to split."

i wanted so bad to tell him why i was doing this i just couldn't. i know the minute it comes out of my mouth he will never want to see me again.

"johnny i just can't. you should be able to enjoy your summer without a girl who's miles away."

"but i would enjoy it whether you're 100 miles or 1 mile. actually i take that back. i would miss you but i would still have you."

"exactly you will miss me. i don't want you to worry about that. i love you too much to put you through that."

"i will miss you whether we're together or apart."

"and me the same."

"i love you too mackenzie. forever and always."

"forever and always johnny."

i stood up off their couch and we hugged. i turned around and told myself not to look back.

don't look back. don't look back.

i walked out their front door and to my car. by the time i got in and turned the key in the ignition he had already shut the door.

i sat there for about another five minuted crying on the steering wheel. i couldn't control myself. i eventually pressed the gas and drove home.

i opened my door and walked straight up the stairs to my bedroom.

i removed my makeup, turned the bath water on and poured in some bath salts and let them dissolve while i applied a face mask. when i got done i say down in the warm water and just let myself sink in.

i couldn't deal with all this stress. between going to australia and leaving johnny. i couldn't stand it.

i continued my bath and by the time i was done i got out, dried myself off and peeled off my mask.

i put on some clean pajamas. and sat in my bed. i turned on my tv and went straight to netflix. before i turned on my favorite show friends i went downstairs to grab a snack.

i couldn't find anything that looked good so i mixed together a protein shake. i took it back to my room and turned on the show.

after a few episodes i had gotten tired snd finished my shake. i brushed my teeth and hopped back in bed. i felt as if i went to bed as soon as my head hit the pillow.

a/n: ok ew.

i hated this chapter.

but omg i love friends & shane dawson haha

imma leave now ok.. BYE