I loved my dog, Via. She was always there for me when no one else was. I played with her everyday and she slept in my bed when Ashton went on tour so I didn't feel alone. But one day, Via started coughing up blood. I knew she was an old dog, but she had never had any medical issues. Ashton was coming home from tour tomorrow, so I decide to wait til he got back to take Via to the vet. As the day went on, she seemed to get worse. You decide you need to take her to the vet now. You drive to the vets office with Via coughing in the back seat. You wait in the office as you fill out the papers with Via by your side, looking miserable. When you're done filling out the papers and you hand them back to the lady, the vet comes out and takes Via. You get a text from Ashton. "On my way home" "I'm at the vets office with Via. She was coughing up blood and I didn't know what to do." "Text me if she's alright. I'll see you soon. Love you <3" " Love you 2 <3" You put your phone in your pocket and wait patiently for the vet to return. After a good hour , the vet came back out. "Ma'am, I'm so sorry to tell you, but your dog as Tuberculosis." You feel a tear roll down your cheek. You know what tuberculosis is. You also know that they most likely won't be able to save her. "We can't do much for her. Shes already old. I'm afraid that we might have to euthanize her." Now I'm just sobbing. Not Via. Not my Via. "We only have a few options. You could keep her here and we could euthanize her or you could take her home and let her pass naturally. You think for a minute. "I want to take her home." You sob. "Alright ma'ma." The vet walks back into the room. You cry into your sleeve until the vet gets back with Via in a carrier. "I'm terribly sorry." She puts the carrier down next to you and you nod at the lady. She pays your shoulder and walks away. You wipe your tears and pick up the carrier. You can hear Via coughing in the carrier and you feel more tears form. You walk out to your car and sit Via in the seat next to you. When you get home, you don't know what to do. Via is dying. Your best friend. You playmate. Your therapist. She's dying. You take Via out of the carrier carefully and put her down on your couch. You lay your head down on the couch next to Via and stroke her head as she breathes heavily. "I love you, Via. Forever." You day as the tears start to well up again. As you cry yourself to sleep. You know. She's already gone.
You wake up the next morning with Ashton cuddling you in his arms. Your cheeks are wet and Ashton's shirt has a spot from where you were crying. You look on the couch to see Via's cold body sitting there and the tears start to come back. You try to cover your sobs because you don't want to wake Ashton up but he's already awake. "Shhhhh. It's alright." Ash puts his arms around and squeezes you. "She's gone. And she's not coming back." You cry even harder. You buried Via in your backyard. You wanted her to always be with you. You spent two weeks crying in your room. Ashton didn't complain. He knew that you loved Via with all your heart and he cried too. One night, you couldn't bring yourself to sleep. Ashton was cuddling you and you kept trying to close your eyes but you just kept thinking of Via. "Babe? Are you okay?" Ash says as he rubs your back. "I can't stop thinking of Via." You whimper. Ashton slowly starts to sing The only reason. He used to sing this song to you when you couldn't sleep because of stomach cramps. You slowly start to close you eyes. That night, you dream of Via. She may not be with you physically, but she will never leave your side.
Why do I keep writing deep shit? I don't know.
