Yaadein...best friends forever ✅

• Yaadein - 8 •

Viren's parents had gone out for a friend's wedding while Viren took this opportunity to relax woth his wife. Right now she sat on the porch while he laid his head in her lap enjoying the sensation of her smooth fingers running through his locks.

"Hmmm...it feels heaven jeevi."

He moaned while his face showed his feelings. His lips stretched into a wide smile while he hummed his satisfaction every now and then.

Jeevika absent mindedly ran her fingers through his hair while her mind wandered off in old memories. This moment reminded her of old times when there wasn't any third person between them. After Sana came, she never initiated any physical contact with him knowing her limitations too well. Being a girl she understood Sana and tried to make her feel secure that nothing was going on between her and Viren nor were there any feelings involved rather than acting possessive. But old times were just that. Now things were different. Now Sana wasn't in the equation anymore so some things turned back to how they were before but what was most important didn't turn that way. And that's what hurt her the most. He wouldn't tell her things he would have told her in those times. It only proved that he didn't trust her anymore but was just trying for the sake of their parents, afterall this marriage was never his choice. And she wouldn't force him either. She loved him, she could finally admit it. And she wouldn't expect him to love her. She knew no matter what he would fulfill his duties and try his best. So she would rather not burden him with her expectations. But what hurt her the most was that she had lost his trust. This hurt her more than the fact that he wouldn't return her love. After all, not gaining anything was fine with her. But loss of something she previously possessed was something she could not cope up with. She didn't even realize she was crying.

Here Viren was reminiscing his past too, but with different feelings. At this moment he had an epiphany. He should have realized long back, that lying in her lap induced the feelings of being loved, being secured and not being alone which should have been enough to make him realize long back that she was special. Luckily his parents did even if he didn't and all was well now. He sighed happily, thinking how content he was at the moment and wished for nothing else but this feeling to last always. It was during this that he felt his cheek getting wet, he felt that substance in his hands and realized it was water. But they should't have any leakage problem yet, since it was not even close to rainy season. He opened his eyes, so he could deal with whatever it was as soon as possible and go back to hos dreamland. The sight that met him shocked him to the core. His wife was crying and he had no fucking clue as to why. He tried to remember if he had done or said something that might have hurt her, and his mind could could not come up with anything. Seeing the urgency, he got up.

"Jeevi, kya hua?" (Jeevi what happened?)

Feeling his hands on her cheeks brought her back to the present. She put her hands on her wet cheeks and then realized what was happening.

"Jeevi, kya maine kuch keh diya-"
(Jeevi, did I say something-)

She shook her head wiping her tears but they kept coming out.

"Tumne kuch bhi nahi kaha."
(You didn't say anything.)

"Toh?"
(Then?)

"Tumne khuch bhi nahi kaha."
(You didn't say anything.)

"Huh?!"
He was lost. He didn't understand what had led to her crying, when he hadn't said anything.

"Tum aaj kal kuch bhi nahi batate. Pehle mujhe har chhoti moti baat bataye bina tumhe chain nahi milta tha. Aur ab mujhe dukh ki baat toh dur, mere saath tumhari khushiyaan bhi nahi baatte. Haala ki, iss sab ke liye mai hi zimmedar hun. Maine tumhara bharosa toda. Isliye ab tum mujh par bharosa nahi rakh paoge."
(Nowadays, you don't tell me anything. Before, you would tell me everything be it big or small. And now, you don't even share your happiness with me, let alone sharing things that make you feel upset. Besides, I myself am responsible for this situation. I broke your trust. Now you won't be able to trust me ever right?!)

She sighed looking up at the sky.

"Jeevika, maine tumse koi baat nahi chhupayi. Sach mein. Tumhe aisa kyu laga?" ( I haven't hidden anything from you. Really. Why did you feel that way?)

"Achha! Toh phir jab tum bich mein bandar ki tara haste ho aur main puchti hun kya hua toh mujhe batate kyu nahi?"

(Oh, really? Then why don't you tell me anything when I ask why are you smiling by yourself like a monkey)

"Main bandar nahi dikhta okay?!"
(I don't look like a monkey okay?!"

"Viren! Iss sab mein tumhe bass yahi sunai diya?"

"Viren, out of all things you chose to hear this part!"

"Jeevi, tum bhi na...woh toh mai bass..."
( Jeevi, I was just...)
And he began to smile that way again, while scratching the back of his head.

"Bass kya?"
(Just what?)

"Mai tumhare baare mein soch raha tha."
(I was thinking about you back then.)

"Huh?! Kya soch rahe the?"
(Huh?! What were you thinking?")

She didn't believe him a bit. If he was thinking about her then he would have surely told her. He was straightforward like that. So she would just pester him now till he blurted out the truth. That would definitely work.

"Yahi ki mai ab tumme ek dost nahi dekhta."
(That I don't see as my friend anymore.)

She knew it. And he finally said it. Even though she had half expected it and prepared herself mentally for the same but hearing him say it still hurt her.

"Mera nazariya badal chuka hai puri tarah se."
(My perspective has changed completely.)

Seeing that she misunderstood, he knew it was now or never. No matter what she says, he had to say it and free himself and in a way her too, so she won't feel guilty anymore.

"Kitni sharmanaak baat hogi, agar mai apni biwi ko apni dost kahunga. Kya mera utna bhi haq nahi tum par? Maanta hoon kihum bachpan se dost hai. Par ab humara rishta badal chuma hai. Kya humein uska sweekar nahi karna chahiye?"
( It would be laughable and shameful if I call may wife, my friend. Don't O have that much right? I agree that we are childhood friends, but that isn't the only relationship we share now. Shouldn't we acknowledge that?)

She just looked at him, just understanding that she had misunderstood what he said. And then, she felt hope. Maybe, justaybe he wanted to give their relationship a chance.

Seeing her not replying, he felt a bit discouraged but knew that he wouldn't be able to get courageous enough to say it later on. So he had to say it all now.

"Tum puch rahi thi na, ki mai tumse kya chhupa raha tha? Sach kaha tumne. Maine chhupayi hai tumse ek baat. Aakhir tum mujhe kuch jyaada hi achhe se jaanti ho."
(You were asking no, what was it that I wasn't telling you? You were right. There's something I haven't told you yet.  After all, you know me only too well.)

"Jeevika..."
He took her hands in his and looked in her eyes.

"I love you, kab kaise nahi jaanta. Mujhe bass itna pata hai ki mai tumhara hoon aur tum meri."
(I love you, how when I don't know. I just know that I am yours and you're mine.)

Not getting positive response, he looked at her again but she could only continue crying. After a while her hiccups slowed down but she smiled and hugged him.

In the midst of hiccups, he heard those words.

"Love you too."

He smiled and hugged her back. Maybe, just maybe in few months he could finally give their parents the good news they are waiting for.

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And finally the story is complete.  My first completed work hurray! I may post an epilogue later on if I can think of something. But for now, here's where we stop. Hope you enjoyed this short journey guys. Let me know through your votes n comments 😊

Will post Faasle soon. Also do check out "Let's gossip!".woll post an exclusive interview of Virika(TCCB) soon.

Till then, Ciao!

Published on 18th July, 2018