Empty..that's how I feel.. it's like this hollow ache deep down in the depths of my soul.
Like the pain and memories of yesterday send vibrations through my chest with just a thought of them.
I can feel it making it's way up my body..
from the tips of my toes ,slow making it's way to the center of my being..
Trying to convince me to give in..
But I won't ,NO I won't
I will not end my life....
I WILL NOT !!!!
Ugh I almost screamed I will not outloud...that was my entry into my journal..sometimes I just sit and write exactly how I feel..and yep you guessed it right now i'm feeling suicidal.
Currently i'm still locked in my bathroom because I can still hear marco pacing in my room..only occasionally leaving to do god knows what...
If you're wondering how I got my journal..if you're not i'm gonna tell you anyways so hah :p...anywho from past experiences i've realized that I constantly feel the need to write my deepest thoughts and emotions into my journal when i've locked myself in the bathroom and no not while i'm taking a dump yah big weirdo.
o_O what chu lookin' at ehh? dont'chu know i'm loco??? ehh :p
Sorry I felt the need to go loco on you..excuse my crude behaviour now back to the topic at ha....
"OPEN THE DAMN DOOR,JOANNA", Marco screamed whilst pounding on the bathroom door..
"Just now ..lemme finish apologizing to the readers"..
es as I was saying...sorry for going mexican on you'all now back to the story hehe bye now cutie putitie
"Yes what is so important ..that you had to bang on my bathroom door foor hours on end", I asked calmly hoping he forget why I was'nt even in the bathroom for hours on end.
"Why were you in the bathroom for hours on end...and why were you crying earlier?"... damnnn he remembered .
"I was crying because..I realized my whole life is just a book and that hurts..ya know really hurts " I said ..I even threw in a sob to give it dramatic effect haha*wink* I can so be a ninja .
"You're not serious ..are you?"
"About as serious as a clown yah big dumbo ..imagine my life being a book..it would probaly be called some cliche thing such as 'wanting to fit in' pshk as if"
"Now is there any breakfast i'm starved" I said while walking out the door ignoring his shocked face..it's not like I was actually going to eat anything ..just a nibble here and a nibble there..I don't deserve to eat..i'm just saying that to distract him..
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