Choices

|VI|✔️

Even though you're fed up, you gotta keep your head up.
-Tupac Shakur

Phoenix

Coming back from our mission I immediately went into my room to change and then proceeded to lay down. All day the only thing I could think about were the cuts on Calista's beautiful body.

Sure the cuts don't make her any less beautiful but it makes looking at her a bit painful. And not in the usual, 'I can't have her way' but in the way where I can't help but think that I'm the reason they're there.

If I hadn't listen to the voice than I wouldn't of had to be segregated and I could've stopped her. But that's not what happened.

At least now I can help. And I promise I will do everything in my power to make sure she is never harmed, whether it be from other people, me or even herself.

After a bit of thinking I dozed off although my mind was still conflicted and my eyebrows were still furrowed.

~*~*

The only thing I could hear were the loud cracks of thunder as I woke up.

I've always liked the thunder for some reason. I just think it's really pretty and exciting although it's scary and sad at the same time.

Hopping out of bed I exited my room and made my way down the hall. Stopping in my tracks when I heard a whimper coming from Calista's room.

Thinking nothing of it when another one didn't come I continued my journey down the hall and to the kitchen.

Grabbing a toaster strudel and some grape juice I made my way upstairs and back to my room.

Until I heard another whimper coming from the same door. But this time the whimpers were followed one after the other, like she was afraid of something.

I instantly dropped what I was doing and slammed her door open, my eyes searching left and right for the source of the whimpers.

When I found her she was sat on her bed with the blanket under her, her knees to her chest and her hands covering her ears as she rocked back and forth.

I immediately made my way over to her and removed her hands from her ears. Using one finger to lift her chin so her eyes could connect with mine.

"Tell me what's wrong mama, What's happening."

"I-I'm scared"

"Why"

"Th-thunder" as she said that thunder went off, her hands instantly went back to her ears and a loud whimper escaped her lips.

I climbed into the covers next to her and removed them from under her so I could pull them over us. I scooted her closer to me and laid her head on my chest, securing my arms around her.

"It's ok mama. You don't have to be afraid. I'm here, nothings going to hurt you." I saw her visibly relax from my words although I didn't fail to notice her flinch every time thunder hit.

After a while of mindlessly mumbling calming words to Calista she fell asleep. I still kept my arms around her and her head in my chest. Having her next to me made me feel like everything was going to be ok. I liked holding her.

I've never felt the way I do when I'm with Calista before, and I know it's a little too early to say I have feelings for her but they're undeniable.

I just have to figure out a way to get us out of this hell hole and then maybe we can start something together. Whether that be best friends or more. Whatever she wants, as long as she doesn't leave me.

~*~*~
A few hours later the thunder was gone and Calista was awake but we had not left our position in the bed. With me stroking her head and playing with her hair as she messed with my fingers on the hand I wasn't using.

"I want food" she suddenly blurted

I chuckled and ran my fingers through her hair. "I know mama."

"We should go then. Now" she commanded. Causing another chuckle to escape her mouth. But I wanted to stay in this position with her for as long as I possibly could

"but I don't wanna get uuuupppp" I pouted. Making sure to stick my lip out for the extra effect

"Oh stop your whining and get up puer"

My dick perked up like a dogs ears when they hear a food wrapper, after I realized what she called me. Just to clarify Puer means baby boy in Latin. Kind of fits because I call her mama but we ain't into that kink type shit. You do you tho..

"Don't call me that" I groaned my voice coming out strained. Instantly an amused smirk rose onto her face.

"Why not" she seductively pouted tracing my Adam's apple through the valley in my abs all the way to my v line. Dangerously close to my hazard zone.

I harshly grabbed her finger as I sucked in a breath and then slowly brought it to my mouth. Placing a soft kiss on it before I let it go and looked her in the eyes.

"Because I'm a bad man Calista and I can do bad things, but I don't want to hurt you."

"You can't hurt me." Instantly my kind went back to when I did hurt her.

"But I did" I whispered a lump forming in my throat as I played with the sheets, my head hung low.

The weight on the other side of the bed was released and a groan was heard. My head curiously looked to where Calista once was only to find her sprawled out on the floor. A small smile making its way onto my face.

She shot up and made her way back over to me but instead of sitting next to me she sat on my lap and pulled me into a hug.

"Stop dwelling on that puer, you didn't mean to and as much as you don't forgive yourself I forgive you, ok?"

"Ok." I agreed although I didn't fail to hear the nickname she once again called me.

"Now get your fat ass up and take me to get some food" she said flinging herself off the bed and getting stripped right in front of me.

My hands flew to my eyes, "Woah. Mama I'm still in here you know"

"Yes I know but you've already seen me like this when I showed you my scars. Plus I know you won't do anything to hurt me."

Hands wrapped around my wrists and pulled them away from my eyes and I was instantly met with cleavage in my face.

"Calistaaaa" I groaned rolling my head back so it hit the headboard. She just laughed and kissed my cheek, sauntering away to thankfully get dressed.

She has no clue what she does to me and one of these days it's going to get her in trouble..