Choices

XV

Calista's P.O.V

It's been around 2 weeks since Phoenix and I talked to each other and it's taking a toll on me.

Not talking to Phoenix is bad enough, but not seeing him had been even worse.

Distracting myself from Phoenix was easy as I always had to do jobs with Ace; today being one of those days

"Calista you're working the whole day since half the girls are out of town."

"How long is the whole day?"

"Until I say to stop, get in the fucking car."

Ace and I's relationship was still bad but at least now I was talking to him and he wasn't threatening to kill me.

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"Hey Calista go get ready and I'll be with you soon ok!"

I responded with a grunt, not paying attention to who was talking to me.

The club was at closing hours, I thought it was weird for a club to close but Ace said it had to do with gang shit so I didn't question him about it.

"Calista you did very good tonight." Ace said randomly while we were being driven home.

"Thank you?"

"You're welcome sexy." He finished with a wink.

Throughout the rest of the car ride I was very uncomfortable. Ace had never really liked me as a person so him calling me sexy was very unnerving.

When the car stopped in front of the house I instantly ran out and went up to my room, I wanted to talk to talk to someone but everyone seems to have better things to do so that doesn't seem like a choice.

As if hearing my complaining Bear walked in and sat next to me, we just sat there for a little until he finally said something.

"How you hanging in there babe?"

"I can't do this Bear." I whispered

"What can't you do, you can talk to me." He replied, scooting closer to me and encaging me in his arms.

"Bear, I miss Phoenix, I told him I didn't need him but I do; I really fucking need him."

"I know baby and I'm sure he needs and misses you too. What you said was stupid and we know you didn't mean it but he doesn't. You can't give up."

"I want to, I don't like it here."

"No one actually like there life Calista, they just push though because that's what you're supposed to. Don't put yourself down because you don't deserve it."

"Thank you." My voice came out hoarse and I sniffled quietly, slowly releasing Bear as he went to get up.

"Talk to him." He says, kissing my forehead and leaving.

I sat on my bed for the rest of the day until it was time for me to sleep.

I knew I wasn't going to be able to sleep without talking to him so after talking myself into it for around an hour I decided I would talk to him.

But before I could my door flew open and in came Phoenix.

He stumbled around a bit before closing the door and making eye contact with me.

Instantly his lip wobbled and his bloodshot eyes started tearing up.

"Phoenix what's wrong?"

Instead of answering he threw himself at me and laid himself on top of me. The smell of blood hit my nose immediately and I tried to pull away from him to inspect what was happening but he whimpered and held tighter.

"Phoenix talk to me, are you ok?"

"I-I know you don't like me Calista b-b-but can I sleep in here tonight? I promise I'll be gone in the morning."

"Of course Phoenix, you're always welcome."

He nodded like a child and took off his hoodie and sweats exposing all his cuts to me.

"Phoenix what the fuck have you done!!" I yelled in horror, springing into action and dragging him into the bathroom.

"Don't be mad." He whined

"I-I'm sad, Calista. I can't sleep without you a-and you're with Ace now and I- Fuck!"

"Phoenix I'm n-"

"No it's ok. Hurry please" he says referring to his cuts

"Yea, right."

I shook my head to get me out of my trance and got to work on his cuts, him only flinching occasionally.

When I finished I let him go to my bed while I changed into something more comfortable.

"Calista?"

"Yes?"

"Will Ace get mad if I sleep in here with you?"

"No he won't. We-"

"Ok cool. Thank you."

With a heavy sigh I got into bed next to Phoenix, not touching him because of his cuts, even if I wanted to.

Whining he pulled me closer to him and a small smile made it's way onto my face even if I knew this was only a one time thing and he would be gone in the morning.