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I've been gone for a good minute but I was just going through some stuff and school started but I'm all good now. This chapters not that good but bear with me lol. Love you guys 💕💕

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Calista

"Phoenix I have to use the bathroom"

"Ok wait I'm coming."

It was currently just Phoenix and I at the house. The boys went on a mission but Phoenix refused to leave my side so here we are.

I'm in my bed watching tv while Phoenix works downstairs on some of his paperwork.

"You know I can do it by myself. I'm not going to cut again."

"I don't know that and I'm not going to risk it babe"

"Alright but hurry I can't hold it."

I got out of the hospital a few days ago and I've been good since. I would never want to do that again, not because of the physical or mental pain, but because of the pain I put Phoenix through.

That was truly the worst part of this whole experience.

Seeing how torn he got because my worthless self thought it was better to die, was awful.

And some people may think that Phoenix was exaggerating but honestly I think it was perfectly normal.

Phoenix has never really had someone there for him growing up and it seems as though I'm the first person to actually care about him, meaning he has made a home for himself within me; if that makes sense.

What I mean is he finds his comfort in me, and I the same. Without each other we would fall apart. It may be too soon, but it be like that sometimes.

A walked into the bathroom and goosebumps instantly rose to my skin. Not the goosebumps you get when you're cold but the goosebumps you get when something isn't right.

"Phoenix?"

"Yes baby?"

"I think someone's in the window."

Footsteps approached me from behind and Phoenix's arm went around my waist.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes I heard them"

"Ok well I don't see anything babe. Just use the bathroom real quick and then we can lay down. Call me if you need me."

I knew there was someone there but instead of confronting it I closed the window and went to the bathroom.

After washing my hands and drying them the feeling in my stomach was still there and I could feel eyes boring into the back of my neck.

Swiftly I turned around and my eyes came in contact with green ones, approximately 3 inches away from. Not on the outside of the window but from the inside.

The figure I knew from only my nightmares and I prayed every night that I would never have to see him again but here he was.

He made his way closer to my frozen figure and caressed my hair, Putting a strand behind my ear so he could put his lips there.

Slowly and tauntingly words escaped his mouth and sent shivers down my spine.

"I missed you sweets. You left me and that hurt but it'll be nothing compared to what's coming to your lover boy for taking what's mine; take that as a warning."

"I'll be back sugar."

With one last smirk and a wink in my direction he swiftly exited the window and closed it behind him, leaving no trace of him ever being here.

As soon as he was gone a breath that I was holding released from my lungs and I relaxed but not for long as I could feel an oncoming panic attack happening.

"Ph-ph- PHEONIX!" I screamed using all of the energy left inside of me before I fell to the floor and started shaking; ugly sobs escaping my body as I tried to control my breathing.

Instantly Phoenix came busting through the door and came by my side, picking me up gently and placing me in his bed while laying down next to me.

He carefully placed my head in his lap and proceeded stroking my hair as a way to calm me down. The occasional whimper leaving his mouth.

"You're okay baby, it's okay. Please stop mama. You're okay nothing's going to hurt you. Cmon mama, I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. Everything's fine."

Once I had finally calmed down Phoenix moved our positions so I was now straddling him with my head on his shoulder.

"Calista"

"Hmm"

"Can you tell me what happened?" He asked. Sounding very hesitant.

"Not yet" I replied moving away from him and to the other side of the bed.

"Yea. Sorry babe." He said getting out of the bed and walking to the door.

Panic rose into my chest again when his hand reached for the door nob so I called out his name.

"Phoenix"

"Yes Calista"

"Can you stay"

"Sure"

I could tell he was angry because when he came back to the bed, instead of laying down next to me, he sat on the other side of the bed.

I slowly crawled over to him and laid him on the bed before I laid on top of him and snuggled into his warmth.

He was still obviously frustrated, as he didn't wrap his arms around me as usual (or maybe I'm just needy) so I had to do that for him as well.

After a while of complete silence he finally said something.

"I just want to help you Calista! But I can't do shit if you don't tell me what's fucking happening!"

His grip on my loosened as he went to run his hands through his hair but my arms tightened around him and his arms instantly did the same.

"I know puer. I promise I'll tell you tomorrow, let's just sleep now ok?"

"Ok"

I pecked his nose beige snuggling my head into his neck and felt his grip immediately tighten; but not enough to hurt.

He returned the kiss to my head and we both drifted into nightmare filled dreams.

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