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Chapter 17

Manhattan, New York

"Beyoncé wake your ass up!" Tommie said loudly bursting into her room.

"Why are you always at my house?" Beyoncé groaned.

"Because I can now get yourself together or your gonna be late for work."

Beyoncé stretched then sat up "I'm the boss."

"Excuses, excuses," Tommie said before closing her door back and leaving.

Beyoncé checked the time and it was 7am. She reluctantly got up and dragged herself to the bathroom she shared with Jay. She washed her face and brushed her teeth then took a shower. After her shower she put on lotion then proceeded to pick out her clothes.

"Good morning," Jay said once Beyoncé came out the bathroom into their room.

"Good morning," Beyoncé said walking into their walk-in closet.

"What time did you come to bed?" Jay asked.

"5."

Jay shook his head, it was like she got less amount of sleep each week.

"Did you take your medicine?" he asked. Jay knew nothing of Beyoncé's mental disorders until one day she overdosed on her meds and she was rushed to the hospital. Jay hated that she kept that from him but he supported her no matter what, and he help her and was there for her every step of the way.

"I will once I eat," Beyoncé said from the closet.

"What about your sleeping pills? Why didn't you take them last night?"

Beyoncé stood in the doorway of the closet looking at Jay "The side effects are treacherous, and it effects my work. It's bad enough I have to take antidepressants, and crazy people medicine. I just want to at least feel normal sometimes."

"You'll be fine, everything takes time," Jay said.

"I won't be ok until I know what happened to Bri, I don't know if she's dead or alive, I don't know anything Jay and it's all my fault," Beyoncé said getting emotional.

Jay walked over to Beyoncé pulling her into a hug "It's not your fault, please stop saying that it is, and Brianna's a tough girl I'm sure she's ok."

"But it's been 5 years."

"I know and we'll find her," Jay said reassuring her.

Jay, Jayceon, and Dave was working overtime to find Brianna. Gucci disappeared along with Rocky which made things difficult but they were going to keep trying until the found her. They knew she was alive because if she wasn't Rocky and Gucci wouldn't have ran.

"I love you," Beyoncé said kissing his lips.

"I love you too. We could make this official if you would agree to marry me," Jay smiled.

Beyoncé pushed Jay away from her and rolled her eyes going back into the closet.

"So your just gonna walk away?"

"We're not doing this again Shawn, I told you I'm not ready," Beyoncé said as she put her clothes on.

Last year Jay asked Beyoncé to marry him but she declined. It's not that Bey didn't love him, she loved him more than anything but in all honesty she was scared, she didn't know how to be a wife. She also had trust issues, and abandonment issues which made things hard for her.