She's the Mateless Alpha

Chapter 2

Tell me what you meant back there, Cheddar.

She whimpered and I felt her bow down her head in shame and guilt. This made me angrier than earlier when I ran off.

You decided to tell me, so straighten your backbone and explain! I shouted in frustration.

Instead, she whimpered louder and curled up in a ball of fear. She knew never to test my wrath because I've got a shorter temper than her and when I'm angry, I am angry.

She decided to speak up, finally knowing what would be good for her. T-The one that every wolf  has... we don't have a mate. We don't have him. He doesn't exist, Cee. He won't ever exist!

I became silent at her outburst. She rarely explodes at me with all the raw emotions. She doesn't yell at me, knowing fully well that I am the one who holds her life. If I tell her to lick my feet, she would be in ecstasy. She's so loyal but that's the problem. I abused her loyalty and never thought of her feelings.

And that's the reason why I knew she was telling the painful truth.

It was too painful to bear. Too hurtful for me to care that I'm supposed to be the strongest Alpha there is. Too much for me to even breathe.

My mind was constantly playing Cheddar's words all over again in the same pained tone. The exact words and the exact amount of pain. I looked up at the sky and simply wished for everything to be a nightmare.

Even if I already knew the truth, I couldn't accept it. How do you even know? I almost accused Cheddar. I breathed deeply to stop the anger and sadness from taking over me.

She whimpered at my question. You know why, Cee. She said in the softest whisper I've ever heard.

Of course, I knew why. I'm an Alpha, for goodness' sake!

The wolves within us have that connection to their mates since the birth of their human keeper, even if the human keeper of their mates aren't yet born. I haven't felt anything like a pull, anything that could resemble it. Nothing.

It can't be possibly true, Cheddar. He must be living! Maybe... Maybe the connection between you and his wolf just has something wrong. Or maybe he's not yet born or maybe-

Cee! Cheddar snapped at me with a furious growl that made me shut up and stop my ramble. He doesn't exist. Don't think that the connection is so weak. And it's common knowledge that our mate would've been born on the same day as us! She stopped and breathed in sharply.

I swallowed down nothing and continued to await her next words under the threatening silence.

You're looking down on me and everyone. She sighed in disappointment and I felt the tears brimming.

Cheddar always knew what was right and what was wrong. She was always the better one. I am actually nothing compared to her. If she was actually my human keeper, then we would've probably have a mate. Everything I'm not. She is everything I'm not. So, being her disappointment is something I can't handle.

I'm sorry, Cheddar. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, please forgive me. I'll never disappoint you again. Please-

Cee! I jumped at her voice. I understand that you can't accept it as of yet, especially since you lost your father, however, I just want you to think of these matters after you've settled things as an Alpha.

I took a deep breath to calm myself. But... the pure purpose of our existence is our mate.

I heard Cheddar sigh and almost let out a whimper. I know, Cee, I know. We'll just get our pack matters down before this mate issue. As an Alpha, the pack always comes first especially since we...