HOLD ON {Shidge}

not much for a beginning (3)

okay um this is going to suck i know it but in this story Katie never really liked her self and Keith is her best friend and there will self harm and countless suicide attempts swearing and also bullying and some LGBT+ stuff. And drug use and under age drinking. so this will be a fucked up story. i'm new to writing so if there is any spelling errors or things don't make sense please tell me.

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~the back story for Katie until grade 9

Katie never was a social butterflyso her real only friend was Keith. mostly because there moms where best friends so naturally they became best friends. Katie and Keith where both socially awkward with other kids at school they had little to no friends.

In grade 4 Katie had to get glasses because she couldn't see very well, Keith had his first crush but it wasn't a girl. no it was a boy but Keith never talked to him so he didn't know Keith existed. Keith had a hard time to deal with it because boys dating other boys was frowned upon. mocked. bullied. and beaten. by others and because they where different. he was scared. by the time he told Katie was in grade 5 he was in tears telling her that he liked boys. and Katie listened to him she never thought different of him she didn't care if he liked boys, all she really cared about was him. Katie told him 'your gay so what.... its not like your a bad person..... you just like the male gender same as me... just...just look at it like we have another thing in common.... it doesn't matter i still love you.... you may look at the world differently for now... but i will never look at you differently.... your my best friend..... ill never make fun of you.... because your being true to yourself.... and that's what matters most of all' Keith never forgot what she said to him and he hopes he never will.

( he knew his sexuality at a young age oh well i knew mine my whole life, never knew how i just knew i liked boys and girls but i never had to the guts to tell anyone until this year)

In grade 6-7 Katie found her love for books and poetry. she would often get in trouble for reading and writing poems then paying attention in class. she loved to write and read she would sometimes read story's and poems to Keith just to pass time. Keith loved her poems but... some where really sad and depressing and he thought that there was something wrong with her... like emotionally. Like if she was okay but every time he asked she would say i don't really know but smile and say she was fine but not even Katie believed that was true.

in grade 8 Katie and Keith started to smoke cigarettes and weed. but they said there just experimenting with things. Keith did it to look cool and because he was addicted to it after the frist time he did it. Katie did it because she felt numb for one reason. her father died in a   crash with her brother in the passenger seat but he lived.  her brother left her alone. he stayed in his room only coming out for school and food. her mom was a mess she would hear her cry at night and she couldn't help her because she would lock her door. and when Katie needed someone to talk to she couldn't talk to Keith because she didn't want him to worry about her. When she tried her mother she would ignore her or tell her to be quite. When she would try to talk to her brother he would slam the door in her face and tell her to leave him alone. all Katie could do ignore her feeling of self-pity and do something else...... But self-pity turned into self~hate she slowly started to cut her wrist but only  started one or two everyweek never more then that.. 

After awhile her mom couldn't keep up with the bills so she decided to move and live with her best friend. All katie hope there new house would feel like a home again..... and not this quite lonely place she used to call home. Her family didn't know that they where slowly killing her.... Killing her slowly inside.

Krolia and Colleen deiced to move in together seeing as they both didn't have a husband and they where best friends. Plus they needed help to pay the rent. The jobs they had didn't pay that much so it was either move in together or go move to a different city to a rent a smaller house. They bought a house with three bedroom house with a basement and a small kitchen and a large bedroom.and two bathrooms one on the main level and one in the basement. Kaite took the basement because it had more room and she had her own bedroom. The two boys had to share a room and of course there mom's had the other two rooms.

When they moved in together in one house and it didn't feel empty. It felt like a home again. As soon as they moved in Katie started to put poems and qoutes on her wall with loose leaf paper. She loved the poems she found online but her favorite one was
           
  'light is easy to love.
          show me your darkness'
                       ~R,Queen

She always thought of it was show me the part you keep to yourself. The side you don't let anyone see. The voice inside you heard that screams to be let free.

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Not much but I hope you like it... Yeah I know I'm slow at updates but at least I am right ......right oh well anyway I hope you like it