HATING TO LOVE THE BAD BOY

Chapter 11

I ran home as fast as I could I didn't even look back , days like this were days when I appreciated the fact I lived two blocks away from my school .

'This is what happens when you try to get friends '  my subconscious throws in at the most random moment . but she is right , having friends or trying to get friends never ends well , for me especially .

"I guess I have to go back to isolating myself from the world " I say as I open the front door and step into the house .

I'm too tired to do anything so I step out of my jeans and shoes and I step into my red fleece pajama pants and bunny slippers , I roll my hair up into a messy bun and I grab a movie and make some popcorn .

after putting the movie in I plop myself onto the couch  with my tub of popcorn .And I realise I didn't check what movie I grabbed it turns its 'Marley and me' I never really cared for it but I decide to watch it anyway .

towards the end I find myself crying . it's the saddest thing I've ever seen , I know how they feel ,losing someone that they were so close to even though they brought nothing but trouble .

There's a knock on the door and I just figured my mom forgot her key in the office or something , I stand up not minding the tears falling from my eyes and the light sniffles that I keep making .

I open the door and I almost faint ,  it's chad and it seems that he almost fainted too . I aggressively wipe the tears off of my face while letting out a low sigh.

"Hi" Is all I can manage to say . why is he here ? he made it clear that we aren't friends , so what is he doing here at my house ?

" hi " he replies looking like he was about to choke on his words .

we stand there in silence for a moment ." want to come in ?"  I ask , and I can tell we are both surprised by my question , " uhm if that's okay with you " he replies and I nod , I honestly don't know what's compelling me to act this way .

he gets in and walks into the living room and I close the door and follow right behind him .

stops and sits on one of the sofa's and looks up at me while I sit on the other . " why were you crying ?"  he asks with a hint of  concern in his voice . I put my legs onto the couch and curl my knees up to my chest and rest my arms around my legs while putting my chin on my knees  . "I was watching a sad movie " I say while pointing towards the 'Marly and Me' disc case  .

"oh" he says and pauses for a moment and he walks over to sit right beside me "I bet you are wondering why I'm here?" he asks and I nod ." biology" he simply says and I remember my promise from earlier .

"you don't have your books with you" I point out ," I don't need books " he says as he lowers his face down onto mine  . "chad , what are you doing"  I Ask as my heartbeat slowly picks up speed . "have you ever kissed a boy ?" he asks and I shake my head no . " thought so " he pulls a smirk before leaning in and closing the space in between us and cupping my face with his hands .

he presses his lips onto mine and his tongue slowly brushes over my bottom lip making my lips part as he fully enters my mouth, his tongue touches mine and it sends a warm blissful feeling down my spine ,his breath has traces of mint and the feeling of him is heavenly as I move my tongue in sync with his and  I forget about everything , all the fighting we've done today and every single thing in this world as he moves slowly almost like he is exploring every part of my mouth in detail ,I do the same with him , feeling every part of his mouth .

we pull away at the same time panting for air "wow" I say as I cock my head back , I've never felt so alive before . I am slowly and painfully dragged back into reality when his phone rings and he stands up to to answer it in another room . I go over what just happened and I bang the back of my head on the couch Repeatedly 

he walks into the room " I have to go " he says and turns to leave and I follow him . "is that all? your going to steal my first kiss and leave ? " I ask while he turns the door knob "yeah " he says not even looking back at me . he opens the door and he leaves .

I am still standing there as he walks away , I bang the door closed and I go back to the lounge to put on yet another movie this time I put on a horror movie and I mentally stick Chad's face on everyone who's head gets cut off .

I honestly don't know what I was thinking , 'nothing that's what you were thinking absolutely nothing' my subconscious answers and she's right I wasn't thinking and I will regret not thinking for the rest of my life.