Pairing: none
Trigger warning(s): suicide, suicide attempts, depression, self harm, alcoholism, neglect
Word count: 1167
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"Well, if this is his room where is Anxiety?" Thomas asked in a nonchalant manner. Roman shrugged, "Why don't we just leave, what's the point" he suggested, Patton let out a annoyed huff. "We have to make sure he's okay" Patton explained, Logan adjusted his glasses and nodded in agreement. Roman rolled his eyes and opened his mouth to say something but then froze.
"Did you guys here that?" Roman questioned as the motioned towards the bathroom. After a few seconds the noise reappeared, it sounded like a soft strangled groan. "Let's go check it out" Thomas suggested, Logan sighed but didn't object as Roman led The way to the bathroom. Bathroom door was barley cracked open, Roman used his foot to kick the door open fully.
Anxiety was easy to spot, but hard to look at, was in the back of the restroom hanging from a noose, a small stool was knocked over by his feet. "Roman, lift him onto your shoulders so he can breathe!" Logan ordered, Roman slightly hesitated before quickly nodding and hoisting Anxiety into the air. "Patton, come help me untie the rope!" Logan demanded as he sprinted behind Anxiety. After a little over a minute Logan and Patton managed to untie the noose and set Anxiety on the ground.
Anxiety stayed crouched on the floor as he began wheezing and coughing, Roman went to help Anxiety to his feet but was quickly pushed away by the anxious trait. "Don't touch me" Anxiety growled, his voice was horse and he was shaking. Roman hesitated before slowly stepping forward to make another attempt to help Anxiety. "I SAID DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME" Anxiety screamed as he pushed Roman away again. Anxiety made an attempt to stand but quickly collapsed.
"Stop acting like you care... I couldn't have died anyway" Anxiety quipped as he struggled to bring himself to his knees. "What do you me-" "There are very few ways a 'trait' can actually die, as usually Thomas' mind would heal us just enough to keep us alive" Logan explained as he interjected Roman. "Anxiety, how long have you been..." Patton trailed off. "Since right after Roman said how I'd be better off dead" Anxiety answered bitterly as he rubbed his neck. The other's stood in shock, "that was five days ago" Roman noted with concern. "Well, there you go I was hanging for five days... I'm surprised you guys even bothered to ever check" Anxiety quipped. "Anxiety, I wasn't feeling your presence at all" Thomas informed. Anxiety let out a laugh, "Oh, okay, so none of you were actually concerned... got it" he remarked bitterly.
Anxiety forced himself to his feet and scowled as Roman, "Don't touch me, Princey... I've been in worse health before" he growled. "Wait. That means that isn't the first time that you tried..." Thomas trailed off and Patton let out a gasp. "First time I've killed my self? No, I've done that many times" Anxiety states before he pushed past Roman and the others.
"How?" Roman asked quietly. Anxiety let out a scoff, "alcohol poisoning, I think twice. I've shot my self in the head at least half a dozen times. I've overdosed on pain killers probably over a dozen times. And I've silt my veins and bled out many times... I lost count somewhere after thirty" Anxiety explained cynically before he pushed himself out of the bathroom. "Why didn't you tell us?" Patton questioned as Anxiety stumbled through his room and over to his cabinet. Anxiety laughed, "as is any of you would care" he quipped bitterly.
"Let us help you!" Roman demanded as Anxiety grabbed a first aid kit from a cabinet drawer. Anxiety let out a scoff, "none of you ever helped me in the past, why would I need your help now?!" he retorted as he made his way to his bed. "We didn't think we were hurting you" Thomas admitted softly, Anxiety froze and looked up at them, almost dumbfounded. "Soooo, you thought that telling me to kill myself like every day would have no negative affect on me?!" Anxiety questioned angrily, Logan let out a sigh. "I have to admit, what we did was extremely... senseless and cruel" Logan admitted his he normal monotoned voice.
Roman opened his mouth to say something but instead looked down... he hated being wrong. "It's fine... I'm used to being unwanted" Anxiety mumbled, he sounded completely exhausted. The group stood in silence A little over a minute not of them knew what to say, surprisingly, Logan was the first one to speak. "I deeply apologize, Anxiety, as though I am Logic I failed to understand the torment we were putting you through, I hope I can find a way to amend our relationship" Logan lamented, Anxiety looked up and blinked several times in surprise.
"Kiddo, I'm so sorry, I know I never was the smartest trait, but should've seen what you were going through... I wish I could've stopped it from getting this bad" Patton added as he wiped away a tear. "Anxiety, I-I never even tried to understand you better. I blocked you out, I'm part of the reason you got so bad, and if I would've just listened none of this would've happened" Thomas admitted somberly, Anxiety slightly shrugged before glancing over at Roman... he seemed so upset that Roman hadn't said anything.
Roman took a deep breath, "Anxiety..." he trailed off for a moment. "You've done a lot for all of us... you've done a lot for me..." Roman trailed off. "I am never realized before, that all that I hated you for, you've done in order to protect us... in order to protect me. I'm supposed to be a hero, but how I've treated you... I've been a villain and you been a hero" Roman paused before looking up a Anxiety and quickly moving over and grabbing his hands, causing Anxiety to flinch. "All this time We've-no I've been Burdening your life and I promise from this day forward, I will do everything it takes to make it up to you" Roman swore, Anxiety sniffled as tears started streaming from his face. "Okay, Romeo, let's settle down" Anxiety joked lightly, causing the others to smile.
"Anxiety-" "Virgil" Anxiety interrupted Thomas, causing the others to give him a questing look. Anxiety sighed, "that's my name" he explained quietly. "O-oh, well, Virgil... we never knew how hard it was for you... we're so sorry" Thomas expressed... Virgil slowly nodded before quickly wiping away a tear. "I understand" Virgil responded with a smile before Patton pulled Virgil into an embrace. "I'm so sorry! I failed you!" Patton exclaimed, "We all did... Virgil, we all failed you" Roman added, Virgil wiped away his tears. "Roman is correct, and we promise to help you more from here on out" Logan agreed, Virgil lightly chuckled and softly nodded as he gave a bright smile trough his tears.
...Maybe, just maybe, everything will be okay
