50 shades of birlem

chapter 63 [ last bonus ]

[ 3rd / last bonus chapter ]

y/n +

"why are you freaking out so much?" asked loren being extremely patient,

"are you kidding me?! why am i freaking out so much?! i've been dating a gang leader- actually one of the most dangerous gang leaders in the world! i even had his kid!" i said pacing back and forth, "why the hell didn't you tell me sooner?".

"i thought you knew! since your dating him i thought he already came clean to you" she shrugged, "this is way too much to take in" i said.

"i honestly just wanna go to bed, i have a headache right now and most of all i feel like throwing up" i sighed

"it's jet lag, come on. i'm sleepy too and plus we got work tomorrow" she laughed.

"oh nice, slutty crystal still work there?" i asked as we walked up the stairs, she nodded making me roll my eyes.

"alright see you later then lor" i said, "alright, goodnight",

"goodnight".

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i woke up to someone shaking me, "hey come on get up-" i cut off loren by jumping out of the bed and running towards the bathroom.

i fell to the floor and let it all out into the toilet, "are you sick or something?" she asked, "i don't know, i don't feel like i'm sick" i coughed.

"mommy?" kash walked in rubbing his left eye as his other sleepy eye looked at me, "morning buddy" loren smiled.

"is mama sick?" he looked up at loren, "we don't know" she answered.

i threw up again making loren walk over to me and pick up my hair, i threw up for at least a good minute before flushing the toilet and getting up.

"i'm gonna go get ready" said loren, "alright" i nodded at her before she walked out.

"come on kash let's get ready to go see grandma and grandpa" i said walking back into the room.

i rummaged through mine and kash's suitcases, looking for the right outfits and found a good pair for both of us.

my outfit consisted of a knee length, long sleeved black turtle neck dress along with some black heels.

i left my hair down as i wasn't really in the mood to do much to it since it was straight.

i dressed kash in a simple outfit, "you ready to go?" loren walked in.

"yeah" i said and picked up kash, i grabbed my bag with my things and walked out the apartment with loren and downstairs to her car.

it made me smile on the memories here, good memories.

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"you ok? you look weird" said loren as i got out the car with kash, "i really feel like i'm gonna throw up again and i feel nauseous" i said.

she arched a brow, "you can just go back to the apartment and relax bc you shouldn't be here if you're sick" she said.

"but i can't just leave" i exclaimed, "yes you can, jen is here so she'll run things".

"i'll tell her you weren't feeling well, she'll understand" she smiled, "thank you lor" i hugged her.

"take my car, i'll have charles pick me up and take me home after work" she said, i gave kash a small kiss before getting in the car and driving back to the apartment.

it still surprises me the fact that charles and loren got close again and are now best friends, i also remember the day charles called me telling me about his new girlfriend madison [ aka mads ] and that he's happier then ever with her.

i reached the apartment complex and got out of the car making my way inside the building and up to the apartment.

i don't remember feeling sick yesterday at all maybe a bit light headed but nothing to being sick, maybe it's just a small fever.

i walked in the apartment and went upstairs to the bathroom, i stopped and thought for a second,

maybe i'm not sick, i might not have a fever or a cold, maybe i'm pregnant.

i looked through the cabinets and found a pack of clearblue pregnancy tests and grabbed one.

i did what i had to do on the test and put it on the counter before getting up, i wouldn't be mad if i was or i wasn't.

it'd be nice for kash to have a little sibling but the sad thing is they won't grow up with a father and that's something i wouldn't want my kid to not have.

i sighed and picked up the test, i took a deep breath and looked at it.

"i'm pregnant."

[ end of bonus chapter 3 / last bonus chapter ]