2U ‹‹ jungkook

twenty one

Nancy letter:

Hey jungkook,

I know you would be confused shocked, probably angry and upset later on but I won't be there with you, so please hold on.

I didn't knew your situation when you arrived first in that room of kids but I knew you were lost. I can see it clearly, I may look dense but- let's not start with that. I'm dense.

But seeing you smile was great, remember when you smiled helping minha. It was so beautiful and I promised myself that day that I'll make you smile everyday.

And when you got stuck in cart, it was hilarious but your laugh was so precious. I liked seeing you laugh.

The affection I saw in your eyes for Mrs kim like she was your own grandma make me fall a little more for you. You need to promise me you'll take care of her. She loves you.

And you need to promise me that you won't leave music, I saw how much it makes you happy. So Mr Justin seagull you gotta write some of your own songs I would love to hear. Just sing it, and don't worry I'll be hearing you.

Okay I know I owe you explaination now but believe me, it was hard for me too. Remember I told you we all have to live the life destined to us? Well my life started from this hospital and ended here as well.

I had a week heart jungkook from start when I was a kid and I spend my life with different beeping machines, different hospital but I hate it. It was no fun but I didn't had a choice. At last six years ago I arrive here when I was twelve. And I made it my mission to not spend my life lying on bed attached with bunch of machines anymore.

My mom gave up on my health too. If I was going to die in end why not spend my days doing the things I always wish.

I didn't regret anything. Meeting you and these people was the best thing ever happened with me. Just one thing though......that would be meeting you too late.

When I met you I knew I had small amount of time but I didn't want to ruin your little happiness by telling you about it. I didn't tell anyone, even yoojin didn't knew, she isn't appointed in my ward.

But it was worth it wasn't it? These last days I wanted to meet you but I thought I had few more days but sign it wasn't the case.

Please don't cry jungkook, it'll hurt me. I wasn't given long life, it wasn't your fault or anyone. And don't you dare to be guilty because you didn't came to meet me I know you had exam but you doesn't knew about my condition my fault not your.

But can you promise another thing? Can you live for all of us. Can you live for me? The life I always wanted to, I'll watch you from here and cheer.

And smile till you have teeth Justin Seagull, you'll look hilarious smiling with only gums.

And please look after the kids and everyone else. They're too dear to me and I love them so much but I can't be with them.

And sorry...i tried to live, i wished to spend a little more time with you but it isn't in my hand. I'm sorry jungkook.

And I love you...I was too much of a chicken to admit it to you and don't be upset because you couldn't tell me I know you love me too, yoojin told me.

Take care of yourself for me please, your mine..... aren't you;) So please. And be happy.

Yours Nancy❤