Battle of a woman in love

Calm in love.....

We walked in silence to the car l was in my own world trying to see and plan my next move....babe l want you to be strong l know God is not your best friend but its time you start considering being born again ..Sandy said while we entered the car ...l agreed totally in fact l never went to church it was any other business to me..all my life l had everything because my day was very rich so l never lacked anything at all. l had maids to wait on me and drivers to take me wherever l wanted to go and because of this no one ever explained much about God...as ewe drove home Sandy explained  this and that about faith but my mind was far away ..We arrived home and sandy went inside for a nap...l was left to reality in an hour my husband was going to be home and all that Sandy said was coming back to me. It was time for me to be the wife for Cayden and cooking for him was on top of the least.. My cook walked to me while l was far away in thoughts trying to see what my cooking will be like..He came to me and asked the menu for the night..don't worry Jeff l will do it just go take a rest l said ....😳😳😳 are u sure he said his eyes wide opened..

 For all the years he had worked with my family since we lived with dad until now he was my personal Cook he has never seen me making even a sandwich. He knew that the kitchen was not my area at all because l was a very busy woman.. he was reluctant to go he wanted to insist that l go and rest but l told him its fine.... Left alone in the kitchen l took my tablet and searched for some recipes on You tube.. my husband loved beef so carefully l followed the recipe for making beef stew...when a woman put her mind to something nothing will make her fail...in my heart l was praying for strength. l felt less of a woman for l lacked so many qualities of a good Wife and for once in my life l wanted to be his wife and pillar. I now knew how he suffered as a man by being my man because l treated him so bad. He was neglected times without number and like a fool he waited for me who took long to come..my tears started falling as l remembered all his efforts to love me while l was busy chasing money...He suffered with humiliation as l made him just one of the people in my life instead of being the most important person l ever had..

Cayden entered the house with excitement of cause he had seen Tanya's massages but he was too excited with the change of behavior in his wife ....he entered the house looked everywhere in their big ranch house he could not find her and he remembered the kitchen but that was the last place he thought of finding her.He knew that Leslie was not a fanatic of any kind of house chores. His wife was not just kitchen friendly ...he laughed silently as he went to there and his heart jumped when he saw her concentrating deeply in her cooking ...there was some music as well softly and she was singing along she saw him and her face illuminated with a smile. That moment Cayden's face froze as he was realizing some new thing in his marriage.Not even a day has he ever imagined seeing his wife like this 

Ohh babe come here l said kissing him passionately him, took his jacket and bag for the first time in our marriage... l will take care of this daddy can u seat and have a juice let me run your bath..his mouth remained opened as l walked quickly upstairs he followed to the bedroom where l was going and looked with wonder as l put his jacket on the hanger and moved on to the bathroom to prepare for his shower. ...he did not say anything ...l felt good like a wife something l never felt before l smiled and set the table ...sandy joined me and laughed are you the one who cooked dear ....yes but l am scared of tasting it l managed to cook beef stew and rice ....Cayden came and was all smiles when he saw sandy they were good friends l dished for them too scared of their comments ...my husband ate in silence but l saw he was shedding tears l looked at sandy she also was crying l was confused then Cayden said... babe l never thought l could eat your food or see you pregnant, but all this God answered in a week l am so overwhelmed right now ....he closed his face with His hands... ohhh Leslie l never thought l can see this day also my best friend l am so proud you...Sandy said and stood up giving me a big hug....yes lord thank you its a big start...l said to myself and yes l was proud of myself l took one spoon of rice it was too salty but my two people did not say anything rather they were acting as if l cooked so much delicious food. I removed the dishes and my husband watched me washing the dishes.....it was all new thing for him since the day we started dating until we got married....