Waking up next to Luke this morning felt a lot different. It’s just like I knew something bad was going to happen. I still love him more than anything in this world, but there’s just something not right. I get up out of bed and go to the bathroom. Tears are brought to my eyes when I see what’s on my underwear. Blood.
I immediately called for Luke after fixing myself up. “LUKE YOU NEED TO COME HERE!” He walks into the bathroom and looks at the tampon pack laying on the bathroom sink.
‘Babe, I thought when you’re pregnant you don’t need those....’
‘I did too. But that’s not what I woke up to this morning. We need to get to the doctors this morning’
After half an hour of running around we got Gina to drive us to the hospital and booked an ASAP appointment with Dr Blumenthal. We waited in the waiting room for at least 20 minutes and went into the room with Luke. We sat down and started talking;
‘Firstly, thank you for seeing us on such short notice Doctor. And the reason we are here is that I woke up this morning to my period. I just got very worried. Is there a chance that I’ve lost the baby?’
Dr Blumenthal looked at us with a very sympathetic look. I knew then and there me and Luke were no longer going to be parents in 7 months’ time. I felt my eyes getting teary as my vision started to blur. I felt Luke pull me into a tight and loving hug. Then the doctor spoke up, ‘I’m very sorry for your loss guys, I can’t imagine what you’re feeling right now. I suggest you two go on a trip somewhere. Get your mind off things, just relax for a while. I’ll write up a slip for both of you for school telling them that you need to take 2 extra weeks off to deal with personal issues. Once again, im incredibly sorry about your loss.’
We nod at the idea of going on a holiday together. It’s summer now so we chose to go to Hamilton Island. We get our printed slips off Dr Blumenthal and walk back out to Gina in the car. Once we get into the car I completely break down in sobs and tears. I curl into Luke’s chest still crying, making his shirt get very wet. Gina looks back at us and asks Luke to tell her what the doctor said.
‘Mum, this morning Skyla woke up to her period. We lost the baby. The doctor said that we should go on a trip together for 2 weeks. He suggested Hamilton Island. He also wrote up 2 slips for us to hand into the principal at school, to tell her that me and Sky won’t be there for a while, on personal issues.’ After hearing those words I started shaking, crying still in Luke’s arm in the back of Gina’s car.
We get to the house and call Beau and Jai into the lounge room. We all sit down and I look at the blank wall, forming tears in mine and Luke’s eyes once again, and saying those four words no one ever wishes to say. ‘We lost the baby.’
