My Love

Letter 19

This isn't a love letter to my one and only

More of a tale of misery and ranting

Every day I'm brought back

to moving and going to college

I want to wait

But I have no choice...

why?!

I am 17 years old

Its time to let go

Would someone please

Put an arrow through me

to end this ungodful misery?

I'm sick and tired

of being reminded

That I will be uprooted

And moved in December.

they are wanting a reason

Why I wish not to move

Its because I don't want to leave my friends

and I want to figure out

What I'm going to do!

But they don't care

they don't see

that what they are doing

Is pushing me.

Pushing me away

And farther from them than ever

its not what I want its what they or we need

But I want and need to go through the whole year

My last year in highschool

I want to enjoy prom

But I wont be able to

I want to keep seeing my friends

But I wont be able to

I want to keep seeing her and be myself

But I guess that's shut down for now

Why is God putting me through

All these horrible games

And bumps

Doesn't he see its tearing me apart

in this hellhole of misery