My Love

Letter 86

A lot has happened between us, and I know it's not right but you are still my
Love. Nothing and no one will change that. I am not sure if you even read these anymore but... I sit in my room, almost 3 am, thinking about us and it hurts and... I feel like a mushy petty child. That is sad because they can't have what they want. All I want is you. Call me stupid, impatient, and down right rude but in a sappy shit. I still love you, still crave to hold you, but still wish to respect your wishes enough to not bug you. I just wanted to tell you... I'm going out tomorrow with a friend and getting dolled up for my sisters wedding... And well I hope you don't mind if I send you pictures...

I also wanted to tell you... It hurt to see you and that person go to a dance together... I know you probably didn't mean anything and I'm being a bitch once again but... It hurt to hear everything going on and I couldn't be there... Ya know? We had always said that we wanted to hold each other and I know this is a bump in the road but... It's like a mud pit, my tires in my brain won't stop turning trying to get free of the agony.

I'm glad you've picked a college, and I hope ya pick more so you're not pulled down to one option. I hope they all want your talent.

But... Respond my friend.