SOA Will The Son Ever Rise SAMCRO A Jax Teller & Reader Story.

Chapter 6 The Hard Goodbye

Today was going to be the Hardest day of my life I was now showing and I was leaving Jax I rolled over and kissed Jax one last time I got up out of bed and pulled the note I had wrote him from my purse and set it on my pillow I grabbed my purse and my bag i stopped in the entry way I'm sorry but i won't let our child grow up around all of this i pulled his door shut i walked down the hallway I stopped when I entered the main room I looked around making sure no one would see me I took a deep breath and headed out the main door’s I walked over to the Lincoln Riley I turned around Tig was standing a few feet from me i opened the door i threw my things in the front seat I turned and faced  him. Where are you running off to Doll? I looked up at him Take care of Jax for me I wrapped my arm’s around him hugging him I got in the Lincoln and started it he never said a word he watched me leave though i drove up 580 morning came I gripped the wheel and Just kept driving tears started rolling down my face I had just left the best thing that’s probably ever gonna happen to me. I rolled over and went to place my arm around Riley but it fell to the bed she was gone I leaned up Babe I looked down there was a note on her pillow I picked it up and started reading it

My Dearest Jackson

I’m Truly Sorry For The Pain That This Is Going To Cause You. It’s Not Going To Be Easy For Me Either, Believe Me You’re the Best Thing That’s Ever Happened In My Life I Really Wish Thing’s Didn’t Have To Be This Way, And Maybe One Day You’ll Understand Hold On To All Of Our Memories And Please Try To Understand That This Life Is Not Meant For A Child I Love You Jax

Sincerely Your Girl Riley

Shit i jumped up outta bed i ran down the hallway and passed the bar What's going on Jackie Boy? I pushed the door open and ran out into the parking lot the Lincoln was gone and so was Riley Gemma came rushing out of the office Jax what is it baby? I handed her the note oh god she left. I ran to my bike I started it and took off Tig came outside He knows? Gemma looked at me you knew about this yeah i was in the parking lot when she left Jesus Christ go follow him before he dose something wreakless I road all over charming she was really gone and i had no idea where she was headed I pulled into TM i parked the bike and walked into the clubhouse any luck baby I looked at Gemma no Hey Jax yeah what’s up Tig? I gotta tell ya something I had no idea man what are you talking about? I was in the garage last night when she was leaving I walked over to her she told me to take care of you she just hugged me then took off I didn’t think anything of it man I grabbed him you son of a bitch I shoved him up against the bar table I punched him twice in the face Im sorry Jax I had no idea she was leaving I’m sorry man you could have fucking stopped her I went to hit him again Clay pulled me off Tig Alright that's enough I jerked away from him I stomped down towards my room I destroyed the room Gemma came in Jax please look at me sweetheart I fell to my knees this Is all my fault she pulled me to her and held me she will come back I know she will I picked up the Reaper necklace I gave her and held it in the palm of my hand Juice sat at the bar for Day's hour's looking for a trace on her phone or a hit on the licenses plate nothing month’s went by she would have had the baby by now this girl was smart she didn’t want to be found and I had to accept that.

Time pass

5 year’s went by i gave brith to a 7 pound 8oz baby girl named

Saraya Jade Teller she had Jax's blonde hair and some of his features she was the most beautiful thing i had ever seen besides her Daddy I was sitting in the parking lot of the school waiting for my baby girl the school Bell rang she ran out to the car I drove back to our apartment I pulled into the driveway and got out I heard motorcycles close by Jaxs face crossed my mind I turned and looked in the direction the sound was coming from they drove by I seen a women on the back of one of the bike’s I seen myself and Jax through that women Mommy I snapped out of it I looked towards the apartment are you going to open the door she yelled yeah baby I’m sorry I opened the door she ran in and sat down at the kitchen table I sat down on the couch starring at her all i seen was Jax she was his twin she looked so much like her Daddy the last couple of month's I started to feel guilty for what I had done to Jax I had to fix this and i was going to fix this i made dinner and watched TV with her till she fell asleep in my arm’s I picked her up and carried her into her room I laid her in bed and pulled the blankets up over her I walked into my room I pulled my bag out I pulled my old phone out and turned it on i scrolled through till i got to i paused and stared at Jax's name as my finger hovered over the button i was Nervous terrified of what he would say i mean my god i just got up and left with his child and never really explained to him why i was leaving i took a deep breath and hit the button and put it up to my ear i exhaled as soon as i heard it start ringing.