The Devils Son

14. Commitment

Charolette's POV

I turn over and pull the blankets up around me. I can hear him lay down beside me but he doesn't touch me. All I want is for him to hold me.

Why doesn't he try? I know he can be good, I've seen it. He doesn't have to be like his father.

An hour or so passes and I roll over onto my back and look up at the ceiling.

"Why do you even like me Levi" I say quietly.

He turns his head and looks at me in the dark.

"Your everything I'm not and yet I can see myself in you. The way I see it we both had it hard, I was born in hell and never got a chance and you where sent to hell unfairly, were like Gods outcasts" he says then pauses for a moment. I'm honestly shocked he's actually giving me a straight answer?

"I was born from evil. I don't see the good in things like you do, I guess. Every time something happens I expect the worst. For the first time I have something good in my life but I know if I keep it too long I will turn it evil like everything else around me. That's why I want you but I know I can't have you" he says looking down at me.

"Your not evil and your not going to turn me evil Levi" I say as I sit up next to him. He faces the big windows that look out into the night and I grab his arm and flip it so I can look at the veins on his wrist. I lay my head on his shoulder and trace the faint almost invisible glowing lines along his wrist.

"You fascinate me" he says looking down at me tracing his veins. I look up at him confused.

"You can sit this close to me. You let me touch you and hold you after all you know about me. You know how evil I can be and yet you sit here choosing to be this close to a monster" he says looking at me.

"You fascinate me" I say back quietly and he grins softly

"Your so supposedly evil and such a monster but yet you are gentle and careful with me. You are the prince of hell yet you don't use your mind tricks on me to force me to obey you like I know you could. And you have powers so I guess that's pretty fascinating" I say smiling. He doesn't give himself enough credit. He thinks he's such a monster. "You grew up in hell as the son of evil itself and you are half demon but you are also part angel Levi, what you are doesn't define you, what you do defines you"

  He doesn't respond but instead softly traces his fingers against my hand.

"Why can't I get pregnant from you" I ask randomly after a long moment of peaceful silence washes over the room. I've been sitting on this question for a while but I keep forgetting to ask.

"Why are you trying to lock me in for the next 18 years" he says smirking.

"Levi" I ask pressing for an answer. He always does this to avoid answering my questions.

"You where dead in hell" he says simply.

"But I'm not dead anymore" I ask confused.

"Technically yes I could get you pregnant now but don't worry about it"

"Why shouldn't I worry about that?!" I ask starting to panic.

"Stop panicking" he starts, shifting towards me. "When I heal you I would be able to feel something like that and fix it"

"Fix it?" I ask confused.

"You don't have to worry about getting pregnant Charolette" he says simply. What is he saying? Is he saying he could just terminate my pregnancy? I'm pro choice but that's not even giving me a choice?

"Levi you wouldn't kill your own baby" I say looking at him shocked.

"Yes I would" he says and I immediately drop his arm.

"That baby would kill you Charolette. I wouldn't let it do that to you" he starts. "You are human you can't carry a Devine creature like that"

"How do you know" I look at him confused.

"I wasn't my father's first try Charolette" he pauses for a moment. "He tried with many humans and it killed every single one. That's why my mother was a demon"

"Oh" is all I say as I look back down. I guess I didn't really want to know the answer to that after all. I could never have a kid with Levi even if we wanted to. I start to feel bad for him because he would have to knowingly kill his own child if I was to get pregnant just to save me.

"Can you sense if there was something wrong with me just by doing that thing you do" I say looking back up at him.

"I check you all the time, you are now" he says and grabs my hand and his veins start to glow but I don't feel any different.

"Now?" I ask looking up at him.

"A while ago you had a mass on your ovaries, it was very small but it's gone now, it was probably nothing" he says looking at me with a small smile.

"My mother died of Ovarian Cancer" I say quietly.

"And you won't" he says and pulls me into him.

"Was she in hell?" I ask looking up at him.

"I don't know" he says then looks at his hand.

"Levi I need to know if my brother is alive" I say quietly.

"He's alive" he says then looks at me

"How do you know" I ask now very confused.

"I've seen him" he says laying back down in the bed as he wraps his arm around my waist and pull me down to him.

"When" I look at him demanding answers.

"When I went to see your grandma" he says like it's no big deal. I shoot back up in the bed and look down at him.

"When did that happen? How could you not tell me? They live in Canada Levi when did you go to Canada" I ask very demandingly

"When I left for the day and you almost got yourself killed by an Angel. Again." he says and I immediately hit him. WHAT THE HELL.

"Why wouldn't you tell me this sooner" I yell at him.

"If I told you, you would've wanted to go see them and you know you can't go see them" he says as he grabs my wrists so I can't hit him again.

"Levi I'm going to go see my brother you can't stop me" I say looking down at him. He sits up again.

"Yes I can and I will, you are supposed to be dead remember" he says in a deep serious tone.

"So I explain to him what happened I don't care I need to see him Levi he needs to know so he can go to heaven" I say looking at him. I am serious. He will have to compel me not to go that's the only way he will stop me.

"Charolette I'm trying to get you to heaven and if you do this I don't know that I will be able to" he says visibly getting more on edge.

"Why do I have to go to heaven Levi why can't we just stay here like this and live"

"If you die again you don't go anywhere. Your only chance into heaven is this one" he says in a serious tone.

"I love you Levi but I need to do this. If it costs me my ticket to heaven then I don't know maybe we just live like this Tell I die or something I don't know but I can't let my brother go to hell when I could save him from it" I say and he looks out the window into the darkness then back to me.

"Fine" he says "Only if you marry me".