𝑎 𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑓 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 * 𝑏𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑖

𝒕𝒘𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒓

"𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛'𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑖 𝑡𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑎 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑢𝑡𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓, 𝑖 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑒. 𝑖 𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑡𝘩𝑖𝑠 𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑦 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑒𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑠𝑒𝑒, 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑣𝑒, 𝑤𝘩𝑜 𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑚𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑖 𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑚𝑒?"

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y/n's pov

I wasn't ready, why is it I never get the chance to say things on my own timing? why did it have to come out like that? all I saw at that moment was red and the next thing I knew my hands were on the side of suko's face and she was on the floor. 

I felt jean and Sasha's hands grab at me pulling me away from the girl and the shocked faces of other students staring at the scene clouded my sight, I wanted so badly to walk back over there and finish what I started but with both of them dragging me out of the cafeteria I knew I had no chance.

I felt their hands release me as we reached outside of the school, "y/n what the fuck is wrong with you?" Sasha belted out, "you're keeping shit from me AGAIN and now you're punching bitches?"

"I was going to tell you today! did you not hear what she was saying-,"

jean quickly intercepted as I stepped closer to Sasha, my anger and adrenaline were still very high and one wrong move and me and Sasha would have gone head to head.

"is everyone knowing we're together such a bad thing? is it really so fucking horrible to know that eren and everyone else knows?" jean spoke lowly but there was clear annoyance in his voice.

"no-,"

"then why the fuck did you punch her? you've had much worse shit said to you but one comment about eren knowing you're with me sends you into a frenzy?" 

I felt myself getting angrier by the minute, the last thing I wanted was to fight with jean especially over eren. "it's not like that jean, I'm just tired. do you get that I haven't had a chance to simply breathe and be on my own since everything? do you get that no matter what I do suko and eren find a fucking way to make things hard for me? I was fed up this entire time I've been here it's been like hell and yes I'm happy with you but I told you I wasn't ready to have this come out."

I watched jean's face drop and he slowly took a step away from me and stood by Sasha, "so it's my fault for that happening? you decided to let me kiss you that night, YOU decided to be with me, you fucking let them continue to bother you. you're over him, right? you don't want him anymore right? so why spaz out huh?" I had seen jean angry yet it had never been directed towards me, I was overwhelmed with my own feelings and didn't think twice about how my actions had affected him.