𝑎 𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑓 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 * 𝑏𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑖

𝑡𝘩𝑖𝑟𝑡𝑦

'𝑖'𝑚 𝑑𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑎 𝑠𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑐𝘩𝑎𝑛𝑐𝑒, 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛. 𝑏𝑎𝑏𝑦 𝑖 𝑡𝑟𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝑟𝑦 𝑎 𝑡𝘩𝑜𝑢𝑠𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑠."

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my chest tightened at the sound of her voice and the feel of her pulling me closer, I wanted her, and I needed her, but the only thought that I muster up in my head was how sex was always the thing that resulted in me losing her. 

despite it bringing us closer at times, if I liked her then I needed to do this right and if she liked me then I had resisted the want to tease her. if we gave in so easily like before it would only complicate or force things to come to an end like before; I wanted to cut that cycle.

I raised my hand peeling her arms away from me and sitting back on the seat, "what are we doing?" I mumbled running my hands over my face.

she shifted sitting up next to me, "I thought we were gonna do this?"

"you like me right y/n?" I turned my head towards her wanting to get her eyes on me.

she lightly nodded, "of course."

"then this, it can wait. I can wait."

"eren it's not just yo-,"

"I know it's not but if you like me in the same way I like you then the both of us should be okay being friends like you said. I want to do this right not fuck up like I did last time. maybe if we wait anyway it'll give you something to look forward to." I tried my best to be serious but not wanting to freak her out.

that familiar loud laugh sang throughout the car, "I guess you really have changed haven't you?"

I smiled back, "I guess I have. now get your pretty ass back in the front seat, and let's get going. no detours?" I reached out my hand motioning her to shake it. her hand grasped mine, "you got yourself a deal jaeger."

we opened our doors in sync and closed the door on temptation.

I had a long road to go down and I was hoping I wouldn't break down on the way.