A Whole Lotta Nothing

MIND BLOW TO THE FIRST DEGREE

Have you ever thought you knew someone and that they knew nothing about you and you were fine with that and just accepted that he's quiet and that is how everything was until he springs it on you that even though he was quiet, he was eavesdropping the whole time and basically knows your whole life.... all the stuff you thought only your best friends knew?

Yeah? Me too.

No? Well I have.

I couldn't believe that he knew so much. And also, look I know a bunch of people have messed up and shitty lives... but mine gets to be a little too much for me sometimes. When this happens, I go insane and sometimes the only sanctuary is intoxication or running away from it or telling my friends to see if I can get a smidge of the support that it would take to fix everything... And he knew it all. I had no idea.

Then I was a little intoxicated and ended up slipping and telling him and he gave me this big speech about how he knows my life and he knows it's bad and how bad it really is and he tells me how what I'm doing, and what I think about doing sometimes....it's all cheating life. Told me that basically he knows it's hard but cheating life won't get me anywhere but kicked off the game called life.

And dude...

It was mind blowing. I could never copy his words but he was so deep and passionate. And he wanted absolutely nothing from me. Even though he could ruin my life with what he knew, he didn't want to. He just wanted to help.

Maybe not even that... he just wanted me to stop hurting myself. And he completely wanted nothing else but that.

I was blown away. Mind fucked actually. Gosh.

So yeah. Just....Yeah.