HAJARAH (ON HOLD)

Chapter 8

Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal. Sorry lovelies, it's  been a while.

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I was so down, i couldn't help but cry. I miss zahra so much and i needed her the most at this moment. I mean i am getting married soon, I need her so we could cry together. Amidst tears I fall into a deep slumber, umma wakes me up to pray subhi prayer and I went back to sleep only to wake up to the bright sun, stood up briskly  and went straight to the bathroom took my bath and come out, saw my white lace with gold accessories laying on the bed. Aikin umma kenan I said in my mind, I finished getting ready and was about to go and great umma when I heard a soft knock, and mahmud came in all smilly, then umma came in, she hugged me and whispered to my ears an daura, pray two raakats to seek blessings from Allah for your new beginning. Mahmoud congratulates and teased me and he left too, I prayed the two raakats, took my time to pray to the Almighty to bless and guide us through this journey of life, a new beginning.
My phone rings, it was jawwad ohh my husband already, Assalamualaika I said shyly, waalaikumussalam warahmatullah my wife he said, I'm waiting for you my wife downstairs, bless me with your gorgeous self, I smiled as if he could see me and said to him, I'm on my way habibie.

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It was 6pm and I was going to be conveyed to my matrimonial home, I was so nervous.
My mum came in and she speaks some few words of advice most of it was to be patient, same goes to my dad my uncle and umma my second mum. I cried and cried, I even told adda amatu that I'm no more interested in the marriage, they should tell jawwad I don't want to be with him again. They all laughed at my silliness. I was conveyed to my beautiful duplex home. It was cute and welcoming, but I was crying to even noticed that.
After all the formalities of the new bride, the crying and all, I was left alone. Waiting for my husband to come, and then I heard shuffles of movement, a soft knock and there my handsome and ever gentle husband came in with a Salam. I answered him in a low tone. He sat next to me on the bed and unveil my face, Masha Allah you look so beautiful he said. Then he sat down on the carpet facing me, he took hold of my hands and he start by praying to Allah bless us and he said "habibty, know that you are an amana to me, and I will try my best to be the best, although I can't be perfect, I might sometimes scold you, sometimes I might even yelled at you, but know that I will always love you, I will provide to you comfort, I will be your shoulder to cry, I will make sure u feel safe with me, I will try to be a good and caring husband. I love you forever" I was in tears listening to him, I said to him, ya habibie you've always been there for me, I don't even know how to repay you. I love you with all my heart and In Shaa Allah I will love, respect and cherish you forever, he sat by my side on the bed again and he puts my head on his shoulder. We were silent for a few.
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A year later, lokaci baya jiran kowa, was already used to being a wife, I've adjusted. Jawwad was nothing but a caring and loving husband, he took care of me, does things that I can't even imagine, he's just the rightful man I could ever pray for.
We will sometimes cook together, go out on a date, sometimes chat throughout the night.
We've clear out our differences and learned to stay together, we become more stronger.

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All of a sudden I was down today, gaba yana ta faduwa, I'm feeling down sosai. Then jawwad call came in, I picked the call and i greet him, wai habibie baka taho bane ba, I miss you so much I coed. I hear him smile, na kusa dawowa In Shaa Allah. Mun samu change of plans but xan biyo early morning flight gobe In Shaa Allah. Tohm Allah ya kaimu I said, then he asked lafiar ki qalao kuwa, ur voice seems down, wlh ni kaina ban sani ba kam, I just miss you and gaba na yanata faduwa tun daxu, Subhanallah he said, ki yi addua kinji babes, In Shaa Allah khairan. Toh ameen. Toh ya kake, ina lafia ke fa, nima lafia lao. That's how we conversed, we talked about nothing and everything. At the end of the call, he said he love me and will always love me till his last breath.
The next day seemed more gloomier than the day before to me, I was still down. I kept on chanting Duas, it was 10 30 am, then my phone rings I reached out to it thinking It was jawwad, I saw ummi's name jawwad's mum calling me. I picked up, ummi ina kwana, she answered me but she seemed down, more like she's been crying, hajara diyata kixo Primus hospital yanxu an kawo jawwad ba lafia, I rushed to the hospital hankali na a tashe, I went and I saw my family were already there, ummi ta jawo ni tace diyata, jawwad was attacked by some unknown bandits jia bayan ya dawo daga sallah isha'i, abokanan aikinsa suka ganshi unconscious, they took him to the hospital a can garin, and he was transferred here. I was informed this morning too, kar ki damu likitoci na kansa, I was already crying. Kiyi ta mai addua she said and she hugged me, this woman is strong I said to myself.
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He's awake alhamdulillah, you can go in and see him, he's been taken to room 7, likitan ya ce bayan ya fito ya xo ya samemu a waiting area. We all rushed to room 7. He's already awake and was smiling at us, our gaze met and our eyes smiled at each other. After mine and his family greets him sai kowa ya fita, I was left alone with him, zo ki xauna kusa dani habibty, I did as he asked, took his hand in mine and said, ya kake ji, are you alright, is there any pain, I'm sorry u have to go through all of this, I said as tears kept cascading from my eyes. Kallona kawai yayi and he hugged me, toh ya isa haka kukan, u see I'm alright please ki dena mana.
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The next day, I was with him chatting with him, then he said it again, I love you till my last breath, I looked at him and I said habibie yau kayi wani kyau, kawai ma a discharging dinka and he said nima yau naji change a jikina, naji na wake sosai but gaba daya jikina is weak, maybe saboda ka kwana ka yini a hospital baka je koh ina ba that's why kake jin haka, he said maybe haka ne. And he leans on my shoulder. He kept on telling me how he love me.
Ummi taxo, his family and my family too duka sunxo, an sha hira sosai.
Ummi tace min na tafi gida na dan huta na dawo da yamma since jawwad ya samu bacci and I did as I was told, glance at him sleeping peaceful and na juya na tafi, not knowing that will be the last time, ina xua gida na shiga wanka, na shiga kitchen na dauko cup ba zuba fresh milk zansha kawai sai gaba yayi mummunan faduwa, glass cup din slipped from my hand ya fashe, jikina yanata rawa, I bent down to pick the broken pieces kawai sai waya, was startled har na ya ke, sharp pain naji ya shigeni I winced out of pain, the phone was still ringing ina duba wa naga mahmud ne and he told me in maxa naxo hospital. Nace lafia yace min kawai ki xo jawwad is seriously sick.
Ina shiga hospital din direct nayi hanyar dakin da jawwad yake, but ina zuwa naga ummi a jikin umma, crying, kowa idonsa yayi ja, i turned to mahmud who's eyes were red, mahmud me yake faruwa ne I asked, yayi karfin hali ya riqe ne, hajar kinsan kowanne mumini ana so ya yadda da kaddara alkhairi da sharri, I'm sorry but.. Sai ya kalli dakin ya qara cewa I'm sorry hajar jawwad's gone. He's late. Na kalli shi na yi daria nace Mahmud yaushe muka fara irin wasan nan, he looked at me with pity, I saw tears falling from his eyes. Realization downed on me, innalillali wa inna ilaihi rajiun, then I blacked out.

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Another loss, jawwad left. It was hard for me to write this chapter too.

Hope you are enjoying it.
Our next chapter zan fara hada POVs na mutane biyu. Hajar and safwan's POV, In Shaa Allah.