Wattpad really deleted this book and I was huuuurt.
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Ferg
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"Everytime I see Sayvior in the studio, she sleep."
"Luh lazy. She'on wanna produce nothing."
"Maybe we just boring her"
I adjusted Sayvior on my body before glaring at Ant. "For your information, she just came out of a sixteen hour shoot or some wild shit like that and came to see me. "Let my girlfriend love me in peace"
"She got us all food, so she must love all of us"
Sayvior sucked in air before sitting up slowly and leaving the room.
She came back four minutes later, chewing gum and drinking a water.
"Hi" She sat back down on the couch and stretched out before sighing.
"What?"
"I rolled my ankle earlier and the driving distance made it worse. I was two hours out of town, but I had fun, and I met up with Kai today."
"Give me your leg"
She flipped around and put her foot on my lap.
"Oh wait!" She leaned down off the couch and I started to stare at her butt.
"It's fat. I did that?"
Sayvior suck her teeth. "No you didn't Ferguson. Shut up."
"I think you got an increased circumference"
She threw me a pocket-sized lotion. "The feet too. Can't forget the feet."
"I-"
"I'll sleep over" She bribed.
"So I gotta rub your feet so that you can come spend the night with me?" I asked, taking her shoes off.
Claire burst in and Sayvior rolled her eyes before sitting up and putting them back on. "Sayvior-"
"Get away from me, Claire. I swear to God that I will fire your ass. Leave. Me. Alone." Sayvior stood up and left. "What the fuck is wrong with you?!?"
"What happened?" I asked. "Why did she get so mad?"
Claire gave me a nervous look. "Nothing. Just...y'know. Look, don't worry about it."
"Is she pregnant?" I asked.
"No. We get her tested all the time. Stop being so reckless."
And before I could say anything else, Claire disappeared down the hall too.
"How bad do you want her pregnant?"
"So damn bad" I admitted. "She don't never forget a pill though"
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"You high right now?" I asked her and pulled her up onto the bathroom counter.
The two of us had migrated to my house after the studio.
She was moving so slowly that I had noticed her state of mind pretty quickly. I only asked her because I wanted her to explain herself.
She removed my hands from her waist and grabbed them.
She was tense.
"I'm not going to yell at you" I leaned forward and kissed the base of her jaw once.
"I need a hug, please"
My arms went back to her waist.
I then pulled her into me and squeezed her frame.
I stood silently like that for a couple minutes.
Sayvior sniffed and sucked in air before she started stuttering. "It's - it's - it's- it's"
Her whole body jerked and I pulled away to look at her. "Let me get your inhaler"
She wouldn't release me so I carried her into the room with me and sat down on the bed with her near it.
"Just let me know what you need from me." I spoke smoothly.
"I- old memories keep coming back. It hurts me so much. I get hurt so much. It - I see it over and over again. And then new things keep coming too. I've been sad a lot, and I don't want to feel it"
"That's why you distancing yourself from your grandmother and brother?" I asked.
She had been spending less and less time at her actual house and going out of town, or even kicking back with the boys and I more.
Sayvior nodded her head.
I have never wanted to kill anyone more than I wanted to kill her father.
I took a deep breath to calm myself down.
"Ya past is a reminder that you're stronger than you think you are. Look where you at now, baby. All the shit that you went through, you survived it. And you never going through no shit like that again." I spoke right up against her ear.
She nodded her head and squeezed me tighter.
I slipped my hand up the back of her shirt land rubbed her back like I usually did so that she could sleep.
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The next morning
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I felt Sayvior wrap her arms around my torso and she leaned up against me.
I took the pancake off the stove, and moved the pan before turning to her.
"I didn't feel like putting clothes on. Nobody's here, right?" She stepped away from me slightly.
I need her to walk up to me in her underwear more often.
I pulled her back into me, and she placed her hands on my chest.
"Thank you". She avoided eye contact for a couple seconds before she reached down, pinched herself, cleared her throat and then finally looked up at me. "I love you"
A deep smirk set into my face and she turned away from me. "You get me so nervous"
I pulled her back, but I had to let her go before I fucked around. I slapped her ass anyways though. "I love you back"
"I smell chicken"
"I made a bunch of random shit that I wanted. Pancakes, bacon, chicken, and seasoned potatoes with onions"
She slipped past me to get to the microwave, and the real nigga in me walked up behind her and put that thang on her. "Luh'baby got it going on"
She backed into me slowly and I placed my arms around her stomach.
I kissed her neck and slid one hand down her thigh. "You might just become my breakfast"
"Is this what they call big dick energy?"
I let her go and turned her towards me. "Outta all the things that you could have said..."
"I just made a twitter. I'm learning, Darold"
"Let's just eat breakfast, baby. I'a get into you later."
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