LOVE MAZE (JiKook)

INSECURITIES

Jimin POV

"Oh my God he was kissing me, I can't do this!!! My Yoongi fuck no!!! What the hell is I'm doing???" I'm screaming inside, eyes were wide open. I know It was wrong somehow but why couldn't I stop him instead I stucked there started to close my eyes to enjoy the moment with him kissing my lips gently. It was so sweet, his lips so soft that I lost in it. It might be just a mere of seconds but I felt it like hours. Then he pulled away, I open my eyes slowly and there he was still leaning close and staring at me and surprised when I opened my eyes .

"I...I... I'm sorry hyung!!!" He almost screaming and cover his mouth with his hand. He blushed so badly. I was speechless, guilty was creeping inside me. I couldn't blame the boy beside me only because I was also into it for a moment. Yoongi, my boyfriend kept flashing in my head. Did I just cheated on him??? No!!! I love him, what would he think of me if he know I just kissed my bestfriend's little brother? Fuck..fuck ...fuck!!! I hate myself.

As I lost in my own thought, I felt a hand touch my shoulder, shaking me,"Hyung? Are you okay? I'm so sorry hyung!" The boy chocked, he was about to cry I guessed. I didn't see his face I didn't want to face him it would break my heart as I just realized the sin I did. I stayed there facing away from him, unspoken, too ashamed of myself. Then I heard a door knob rattling. It was Taehyung, I could hear his voice calling me and Jungkook from the hallway.

"Jimin! Jungkook! I'm back. So Jimin you're gonna st..." Taehyung words was cut by the scene in front of him. Jungkook was finally really crying and me sat there on the couch freezing. Then I tried to pull my self to stand up. I wanted to run away as I saw Taehyung's face. The gulity was eating me up, this was always my own problem I always had this insecurities of my ownself. I'd always doubt my own capabality, always blame my self for every bad things in my life even though not everything was my fault. As I stood there Taehyung walked closer to me.

"Jimin? What is going on? What happened to you two? Jungkook? Why are you crying?" Tae kneeled in front of his brother held the boy's hands and threw a glance between me and the boy. Jungkook was still sobbing, I could hear it clearly even though I didn't even throw a glance at him I was so sure his tears were flowing heavily on his cheeks. Then the thing I scared the most happened.

"I kissed Jimin hyung, hyung! I'm sorry!" Jungkook spilled it out, and Taehyung gasped.

"W..What the..."

"Yes he kissed me Taehyung, you heard it right. I'm sorry but I think I'm going home." I retorted bodly as I felt anger and shame, sprinted my legs to leave the house. I planned to stay a night at his house before, but this happened I didn't feel like to anymore. Taehyung tried to stop me on the door way.

"No Jimin, what the hell is this? You can't just walk away like that, I mean it's late, I'll drive you home," Taehyung held my shoulders trying to hold me in place so I wouldn't run away. He knew, he knew very well how my mind's state at the moment. He knew me very well, that was how close we were. he led me to his car leave Jungkook alone, and drove me home.

My dorm was not so far away from his house, it was just about 20 minutes away. Taehyung parked his car right in the front of it's gate. I opened the car's door but Tae stopped me, "Jimin, are you okay? Uhm...I don't know exactly what happened back there in my house but I know it was not your fault so don't beat yourself up okay! You're not cheating on Yoongi, I know how much you love him and I won't say a thing to him, just forget it! I'll talk to Jungkook about it. I'm so sorry! So please! Please don't blame yourself Jiminah!!!" Taehyung assured me, squeezed my hands gently. How could he know what was on my head though. But I couldn't hold myself anymore, because I knew... I knew he was wrong, it was not true that I was not the one to blamed on, because I was.

"No!!! No Tae!!! It was my fault, I just cheated on my boyfriend. I kissed him back Taehyung ah!!! I took your little brother's first kiss!!!" I exploded and tears just found it's way on my cheeks, flowing heavily. "I'm so scared!!! I don't wanna loose Yoongi, what did I do Tae???" I shook so hard that Taehyung let his hands hold me closely he let me sobbing on his shoulder, caressed my back gently.

"It's okay Jimin, you're not gonna loose Yoongi, and none of it was your fault, trust me! it's just...just I guess I'm the one to blame then because I didn't aware that my brother would do such a thing to you and yet I leave you both alone. I was too ignorant to catch the sign. So no! it's not your fault. And you're not gonna loose anyone Jiminah! Forget it! And let yourself to take a rest okay? I'll take you to your room. Wait here!" I nodded and he pulled himself away, then took me to my dorm. As I open the door, Yoongi stood there grinning happily. Why was he even here though? The last time we talked, he was out of town for his job that was why he couldn't attend Jungkook's birthday party. "Yoongi? Why.." I got cut as he hugged me tightly.

"Oh baby!!! I missed you, I thought you're gonna stay at Tae's?" he chirped happily didn't notice the sadness on my face yet.

"Hyung, you're here?" Tae shrieked he was as surprised as me. "When did you come?"

"I just came an hour ago, but I miss Jiminie so much so I decided to go here even though I thought I'm not gonna find him here because last time he said he's gonna stay at yours tonight, but I'm here anyway," Yoongi answered happily, but it just broke my heart even more, I just cheated on him while he loved me this much. "But why are you guys here? Not that I'm not happy but why?" Yoongi asked curiously still holding me in his arm. I could feel his warm breath brushing my neck as his head was resting on my shoulder.

"Jimin is not feeling well Yoongi and he wanted to take a rest in his dorm so I drove him here." As Tae finished his words I pulled away from Yoongi and there Yoongi notice the dark cloud on my face. He cupped my face "what's wrong baby?" ...and I broke into tears again. I couldn't stand the guilt inside me, it was killing me. Yoongi surprised by my sudden cry and hold me in his arms again gently caresing my head, while Taehyung was standing there awkwardly but also worried untill finally he said something, "Hyung, I guess you need to take Jimin to bed, he really need to rest, he stressed himself too much. I'm sorry but I need to leave," Taehyung worriedly explained.

"Oh yeah I'll take him to rest, don't worry Tae, thank's though for bring him back here. I'll take care of him." Yoongi thanked Taehyung. "Owh congrats for Jungkook, I'm sorry I couldn't come but I'll see him later," He tossed Tae's hand as it was their own greeting. Yeah Yoongi and Taehyung were also bestfriend from the same hometown. Technically Tae was the one who introduced us and we ended up dating each others. Tae stroked my back softly before leaving. I was still sobbing in Yoongi's arms.

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Author's POV

As Taehyung left, Yoongi took Jimin to his bedroom, laid the boy on the bed then stood up to take some pyjamas for Jimin. But Jimin held Yoongi's hands to stop him from leaving him. His insecurity was getting his head badly because the guilt he felt.

"Don't leave me hyung! Stay here with me, please!" Jimin begged. Yoongi felt something really wrong as Jimin's acted like that. Because it would just happen if someting bad really happened to him. After dated him for almost 3 years Yoongi could sense easily if there was something wrong with his boyfriend. And this time it was not just about Jimin not feeling well but there was something else that made him acted this way. But he just striped away the thought, saved it for later when Jimin got better.

"I don't leave you baby, I'm just going to take your pyjamas okay?" Jimin nodded. Yoongi turned away, walked toward the closet in front of the bed. He took the pyjamas and back to Jimin, then help the boy to change his clothes. Then cuddled the boy gently. The warm of Yoongi's touch brought both of boys to the dreamland.

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