LOVE MAZE (JiKook)

I WON'T, I'M HERE

*Short chapter but...Warning (a very small??? Smut??? Idk😏😏😏*

It was in the middle of a night when Jimin was sitting on the side of his bed. His mind kept replaying his answer to Jungkook's father. He couldn't sleep and he was blankly staring at the picture or him and late Min Yoongi on the drawer beside his bed. It was dark, the only light that illuminated the room was from the outside. He reached for the picture and gently rubbed it then he brought it closer onto his chest, clutched it tightly and silently started to cry.  

"H...hyung I miss you and I'm so confused right now," he softly whispered between the sobs. He pulled the picture from his chest so he could look at it, "you know I love you and always going to love you b...but right now I don't know anymore h...hyung. Would you forgive me if I love another man? I just can't stop it this feeling and I'm afraid as hell that I'm going to lose him too that everything is an illusion which I made to fill this emptiness right here," he said pointing at his chest. 

"This emptiness that used to be filled by you, your love, I...I'm scared of my own self hyung... I think I'm losing my mind and I hate it," he cried. 

"He has been telling me that he loves me and I know he does but I can't bring myself to believe it, I don't believe myself. I feel like I'm bringing him down with me, I don't deserve him well from the beginning I didn't even deserve you hyung. I'm a mess, a broken glass that couldn't be fixed how could I let you and him walk into my life? I'm cursed, my mother died after she gave birth to me, my father hates me, and y...you died too after you'd met me. I'm so sorry, it's all my fault," Jimin just couldn't control his emotion anymore he cried loudly hugging the picture. 

He might look fine and got better outside but inside he was still depressed and insecure. He just didn't want to disappoint the people who have been staying by his side all this time. Those who have been helping and supporting him, who loved him unconditionally like Taehyung, Jungkook and Jin or RM and J-hope who have been getting closer with him within the last few months.

Jungkook who was sleeping on the couch in the living room heard the cry and got up.

"Hyung?' He lightly knocked on the door before slowly open it to check on Jimin. He reached for the light switch which was on the left side of the door so he could see clearly. His heart shattered seeing the state of the man in front of him. 

"Oh my God, Jimin hyung what's wrong?" Jungkook rushed toward Jimin and engulfed him into a warm hug.

"J...Jungkook, I'm so sorry," Jimin said sobbing on the younger's firm chest. Jungkook could felt the man's body was shaking in his arms. 

"It's okay hyung, I'm here," he said to comfort the man. It was an understatement to said he was not confused about why Jimin was like that but he decided to let it go until the man feels better and question him later. His only concern at the moment was to give comfort to the man he loved.

Jimin finally stopped crying and pulled away from Jungkook. He put the picture back on the drawer and looked up at the boy beside him. 

"J...Jungkook I..." Jimin tried to speak as he wiped his tears. Jungkook patiently waited for him while gently rubbed the man's back with one of his hand.

"D... don't leave please!" Jimin told the younger. He somehow sounded desperate and it gave Jungkook a heartache seeing him like that. There was a lot of question in his head but he just couldn't bring himself to confront Jimin because he was so worried about him. So instead of questioning him, he just did his best to make the man feel better.

"I won't hyungie, I won't! I'm here, shhh it's okay I'm here," Jungkook told him.

As the minute passed, Jimin finally stopped crying. The older pulled away from the boy's arms just to slowly put his hands around the boy's neck, pulled their body closer and tilted his head up and he gently kissed the boy. 

At first, Jungkook just freezes but a second later he kissed the older back, loved the feeling of how Jimin's soft and plump lips on his. Meanwhile, Jimin was not in his right mind, he didn't realize what he was actually doing at that moment. The way Jungkook just held him in his arm, the way their bodies' heat radiating to each other was making his mind going crazy. He was too caught up and overwhelmed by the feeling inside him. So he did what his heart actually wanted.

The slow and sweet kiss was slowly turning into a heated and sensual one as Jimin tried to deepen the kiss by trusting his tongue into the boy's mouth. Jungkook just let him lead this time because he loved it, he loved the way the older kissed him, he loved how desperate the older for him, it was what he wanted for the older wanted him too. Jimin softly sighed and moaned into the kiss. He didn't know that those simple things were also triggering the boy he kissed.

Jungkook's mind was going wild hearing the older's moans and he slowly moved his hand under the older's pyjamas, gently feeling and rubbing the skin underneath the soft material of Jimin's sleep attire. He pulled Jimin's body closer which made the older gasped but their lips never stopped devouring each other. 

Jungkook groaned he can't get enough of the man in his arms, he wanted him all for him, he pulled away from the kissed just so he could kiss the older's jaw down to his neck. 

"J...Jungkook...a..aahhh," Jimin moaned feeling the pleasure by how the boy's lips were perfectly kissing and biting the skin under his jaw, marking it. Jungkook slowly pushed their bodies down onto the bed, so Jimin vulnerably laid on his back letting the boy on top of him devouring his skin. None of them was on their right mind, so they didn't actually realize what actually was happening and what was going to happen. 

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I'm so sorry for neglecting so much, it's not that I wanted to be so late just to update this story, it's just I'm barely survived recently with my own life. So much has been happening lately. Again I'm sorry, I might not update so soon, but I'll update as soon as I can. so I hope you guys will still love this book. Thank you so much!