KHADIJA

REDEMPTION

My Sister had finally woken up from coma and my Wounds  have healed, we went back to nasarawa feeling dejected and alone in the world. The two most important people in our lives have left us, for the First time in almost two years I saw Kameela again she had come to grief with us, my family was her family too after all, she had offered to help me get a job with her numerous connections and within a week she did. I was employed in an oil company were my Skills were actually needed,  things were gradually changing for the better as I had a job now and My sister was alright. Smile returned to our faces once more thanks to Kameela. I had visited her and apologized sincerely on my Knees. I regretted what I did to you I hurt you in more ways than one I couldn't look her in the face as I pleaded for her forgiveness, how could I. I had cast her away because of Khadija but now she had donated blood to keep me alive and also gotten me a great job,  why couldn't she hate me I wondered, as she got close to me she raised me up and said I forgave you a long time ago, it's all in the past now.
  My sister had talked to me about getting back with Kameela, it what I wanted but Where do I start from, how do I tell her Kameela I love you, without being slapped, which was the least of my worries, how will she look at me, she might think <oh because Khadija is married now he loves me Again> Kameela and I became friends again, as I Watched her go on date with a Certain guy, I cursed myself for letting her go in the first place, I was hurt seeing her with another man but if this was the price I had to pay for  how i treated her in the past, then I was very much gonna do it,  I am happy as long as she's happy even if it's not with me,  finally seeing Kameela happy again brought joy to my Heart.
My sister called me a coward, she had said if after what you did to Kameela in the past,  she still sent you a congratulatory text, she donated blood for you and got you a job then all this points to the fact, she still loves you, it made sense but how dare I go to Kameela and tell her I want you in my life Again.
   Days and weeks passed as I thought about what to do, I wanted Kameela back, but did she want me Back, I guessed I'll never know if I didn't Tell her. i got to her house that night, but before I knocked on the door I overhead her talking on the phone about how Fabulous the wedding is gonna be,  kameela was getting married, I was too late I thought ,  I had lost everything now my Pains knew no bound, I became a walking corps as I wandered in the rain back home. Suddenly there was a car behind me it was Kameela's she had seen me leave her house without coming in, why are u walking in the rain, come let's go you'll catch a cold so I got in her car and drove to her house she gave me fresh cloths and blanket, she requested to know why I was walking in the rain. I would tell her seeing as nothing will change even if I didn't, she was getting Married At least I'd do myself a lot of good if I told her and got it off my chest.
Kameela breaking up with you was the hardest decision I have ever had to make in my Life, I was blinded by false love and because of That I lost sight of who I really wanted, even while I was with Khadija I thought about you everyday, how you were doing,  how was school but I couldn't ask you myself coz I was ashamed of my actions. No level of Explanation and pleading will make you believe me as tears rolled Down my eyes. I know I hurt you real bad but all I ask now is a second chance to redeem my self and make tins Right I need you in my life again please give me another chance I beg of you.
For a while Kameela looked at me with that same eyes from when I broke up with her a look of intent. Then she came close to me and said I never stopped loving you  ZAHRADEEN I was so scared of losing you that in the process I pushed you away with my jealousy and selfish actions. If only I had trusted you more then maybe tins would have been different, it turns out the wedding she was talking about was her friends and not hers. As we lay in each other arms that night it was an old love rekindled ,I felt complete again Kameela had given me another chance.