KHADIJA

PAST MEETS PRESENT

Kameela and I were were back together, everything seemed well again, we were happy once more I had a great job I had a great muslimah as A girlfriend, my sister Was in the university, my life was perfect once more, elsewhere everything was Good in heaven and on earth, but I couldn't deny the fact, after all this time I still love Khadija I recalled what she said to me once when we were together, she said no man will touch me if it's not you this I promise you. I laughed at the statement now, it was a distant possibility and one that was made in the past, why worry about an ugly past when you have a beautiful present to live in I thought.
We were together for months now and I felt it was time I took our relationship to another level, I was gonna ask Kameela to marry me, but I was scared, what if she said no but That was just my bad side talking, I worked in Abuja so I had left Friday night and headed for nasarawa so I could be with Kameela. Saturday we went to al ihsan the finest restaurant in lafia and that where I uttered those words Kameela will u marry me, she was speechless and overjoyed as she said what took you so long, she said yes and all that's left was to go meet her parents which I did the following day my parents had died so my sister accompanied me as my only family, her dad agreed But her mom was reluctant to because she was aware of the pain I caused her daughter in the past, but after much persuasion from her daughter she finally agreed and a date was set.
I had received countless messages from Khadija saying she was gonna find a way to breakup her marriage so she can come be with me, she had said even after four months of marriage I haven't let him touch me, sometimes he uses force but I somehow get away from him, but I replied none of her text so one day she got frustrated and called me, with out letting her utter a word , I told her everything. how I had cried watching her on her wedding day and how I had strayed into the high way lost in thought and subsequently got hit by a car, after which Kameela had donated blood unknowing to me, and how my Parents and sister had been involved in a car accident and died, the only survivor being my sister who was in a coma state only by The grace of God did she finally awaken. In my Moment of pain and agony Kameela swooped in to rescue me Like an angel sent from the heavens she Got me a job at shell Abuja, after all we put her through she never hated us instead she Repayed my bad deeds towards her with kindness and even more love, Kameela had made me Happy again and she had given me a second chance and I don't intend to waste it this time, so Khadija accept the situation you're in right now as I accepted mine for it is Allah's will, personally I feel dating you was a big mistake as I had encountered one bad luck after another so from today please don't call me Again and goodbye as I hung up and blocked the number.
I know I hurt her terribly with the things I said but it was probably for the best she should learn to leave with her husband. I had gotten married to Kameela in the most grandest of weddings and everyone was in attendance, it was the happiest day of my life my sister was equally happy, it was loads of fun.
Three months into our marriage and a year into Khadija's marriage to the sheikh, he had divorced her because he couldn't keep up with her attitude anymore. According to him he couldn't be married and not touch his wife for a year I couldn't believe it she actually kept her promise. Kameela had looked at me with that same eyes she did the first time Khadija called but this time I assured her nothing will change,And I meant it.
After the divorce Khadija had called me lots of times asking for us to meet, but I couldn't meet with her I will be loyal to my wife, but, Khadija was persistent, she had pestered me with calls and messages,i finally agreed to meet her when she called Me and said if I ever loved her truly I should please in God's name meet her so she can at least talk to me. we met at a restaurant in maitama Abuja, she looked as beautiful as ever but I couldn't tell her that no way, so I ordered that she be quick I had meetings to attend, and she begun Zahradeen I never stopped loving you, I never let him touch me, he had hit me several times when I confessed to him how much I love you and will keep loving you till I die, I told Khadija look am Sorry for what you had to go through but now nothing can Happen between us am married to Kameela , agreeing to see you is a sin, she knew but she didn't bother she wanted me to get married to her as the second wife since it's allowed in Islam, she had told me she forced her husband to give her a divorce because no matter how she tried to leave without me she couldn't and if I didn't wanna marry her because I think she was touched, she wasn't she kept avoiding him in bed for a year because she had made me a promise if it's not me then it's no one, I couldn't believe my ears, Khadija had avoided Her husband for a year all because of her love for me but I couldn't let that sway me, I had assured Kameela nothing will change and I will stand by those words, as I stood up to leave Khadija held me Back and said In a tearful voice Zahradeen Na San kana sona har Yanzun, but you owe Kameela a debt but please if you leave me I will kill myself because ban da rayuwa in ba da Kai ba, words of a desperate woman I thought as I pulled myself away from Khadija and left, but as I walked away I couldn't deny the lingering truth, after all this time I still love Khadija. But what could I possibly do. She had offered I marry her as the second wife but I couldn't do this all over again to Kameela and I won't.
Khadija's dad had visited me at my Office and talked to me, Kameela had hanged herself it was only by the grace of God that he Got to her in time to save her and now she's in the hospital with a bruised neck,
He acknowledged he made a mistake by separating us but he only did what he Thought was best for his little girl apparently he made a mistake and he apologise, he begged me to marry his daughter even if not out of love but As saving a soul from Another attempted suicide because she made it Clear to him and me, if it's not me she will kill herself, what could I possibly do as her dad left my office, unknowing to us Khadija had ran away from the hospital and was on her way to nasarawa to meet Kameela. despite our marriage we stayed Apart due to our place of Work, we only saw Each other Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays, Abuja and nasarawa aren't very far from each other.
Khadija and Kameela had never met Face To face, but here they were staring each other in the face, without a moment wait Khadija had fell on her Knees begging Kameela to allow me Marry her as The second wife, in truth none of what happened to us was Khadija's Fault she was. Equally as hurt as I was, Kameela had helped Khadija up and made her sit on the sofa, when she said Zahradeen and I have been married for five months now, I wanna enjoy my Husband, I don't want Him to be distracted, I don't want To lose him to you again please I beg you don't come Near him and please leave us alone I need my husband.
Khadija left seeing as convincing Kameela was never Gonna work even her dad her come by to try and convince her but it didn't work. Kameela visited me in Abuja and she knew I was confused too, she knew I still love Khadija but I couldn't agree to their Wishes because I would be doing the wrong thing. We were in bed that night when Kameela brought up the issue, only this time she came from a different angle, she wanted me to marry Khadija, I was shocked, she was a Very thoughtful person and she might have did a lot of thinking to have arrived at this conclusion,
She had told me Zahradeen I know you still love her and I don't mean you don't love me, but you love both of us equally, I know you are suffering inside because of This very issue and as a wife it is my Duty to ease the burden on you by helping you make the right choices, I don't wanna share you with any woman, but Khadija isn't Any woman, she has shown that by her actions and how much she truly loves you, she had attempted suicide just because you said no to her, if she does that again, and this time She actually die what are we Gonna tell Allah, oh am sorry ya Allah I didn't wanna share my Husband with any woman or you'll say I owed my wife a debt so we both let her die, none of this is her fault, if it was up to her she'll have remained single just for you, and if that's the kind of woman I will have as kishiya then I would love it, so please marry her,.
Kameela and I argued about it for weeks because I felt I owed her a debt for the Good tins she did to me , but now she wasn't happy, and if marrying Khadija would make my wife happy again then I'd do it and so I did, Khadija and I got married she was happy as I was too because deep down I married Khadija for love and not For The sake of it.