Undeniable Love {Shirbert Fanfic}

Chapter Five - Heartbroken

Before the Date
Anne's POV
     Class is utterly dull today. We haven't been asked many questions or been taught interesting, new material so there's not much competition for me. The only thing that I have taken part interest in is the fact I can always feel Gilbert's eyes on me. It is now lunch and I am sitting in my usual spot with our group. I am sitting down next to Diana, telling her of my detestable day when Jane comes over to our spot, squeling incoherent things. The only thing I hear her say is "note", "date", and "Gilbert". I perk up once I hear Gilbert's name, earning me a smirk from Diana.
"Girls! Look what I found lying on the ground by the coats!!!" Jane shrieks happily.
Josie quickly snatches the note from her, reading it as her expression turns into a smirk.
"It's a love letter from Gilbert! It is saying to meet him in town today after school! Why Ruby, this has to be for you! He must've finally come to his senses and realized how unconditionally in love with you he is!" Josie squeals, handing the note over to Ruby while jumping up and down. My heart drops as soon as I hear what she says. I can feel my face fall from my previous happy expression as my heart shatters (metaphorically of course). I guess they call it a 'crush' for a reason. Silly of me to ever think someone like Gilbert could like me. Who would ever like me?
Ruby looks as if she's seen a ghost. Her skin is pale, all the color has drained from her face. I look at her concerned, asking if she is okay. She looks over at me and gently nods her head. A gigantic smile appears on her face as she looks down to read the note. Her face instantly turns bright red, very different from her previous stage. She looks absolutely thrilled. I could never ruin that happiness, which is why I will push aside any feelings in me for Gilbert Blythe. My friends will always become before boys and the foolish emotions they give me.
I feel a nudge in my side, looking over to see Diana looking at me with a frown. I force a smile back at her, trying my best to signal that I will be okay. But will I? I truly hope so. I cannot let a boy ruin my happiness.
I look back at Ruby to see her ecstatic. She is beaming with joy. In that moment, I decide I cannot even come in contact with him for I could never jeopardize Ruby's joy. Oh how terrible would that be of me to do. I could never forgive myself.
Miss Stacey walks back to her front desk, which means this dreadful lunch is finally over. I get up, finding the all the energy in me has been drained out. I am emotionally exhausted. How could I allow myself to depend so much on a boy?? I've always made sure I am as independent as I can be, so why does Gilbert have to be different?
I make my way back to my seat, feeling gloom and miserable. I have no right to be mad or sad, but I am. I do not want to invalidate my own feelings, but then again they are not right to have. Ruby deserves Gilbert and he deserves her. They're basically a match made in heaven, credit to our lord and savior for his magnificent work. I just hate a little part of me wishes that note could've been for me.
The rest of class goes by very quickly. Since lunch, I have been daydreaming. No need for reality when I can have a perfect world inside of my head. Who cares if Gilbert cannot be my 'knight in shining armor' in real life, i'll just make a better version of him for inside of my head. But it seems no matter how hard I try, he cannot be made any better.
Diana tries to make me feel better, sending me silent prayers and trying to let me know how sorry she feels. I do not need her sympathy though, I will be okay. Before I realize it, class is over and I can finally walk
home with Diana. After today's emotional stress, I definitely need someone to talk to. Plus, I could feel Gilbert's stare burning holes into the back of my head all of class. Why was he looking at me? He's going on a date with Ruby tonight so why would he even look at another girl? He's probably going to court her. I wouldn't be surprised.
     I rush out of my seat to the door, meeting Diana by our coats. We whisper to eachother quietly while all the others leave. I don't understand why we're taking extra long, but I'm too sorrowful to wonder why. There's only a few people left in the class, but people keep shuffling out the door as Diana and I start to make our way out the door. She goes first and I am about to go when someone rugs my arm back, causing me to jump a little in fright. I turn around to see the one and only Gilbert Blythe standing in front of me, looking concerned.
     "I know you do not need my assistance, but I was wondering if I could do the honor of walking you home today? You do not need to hold my arm, for I know you are strong enough to hold yourself up." he says to me, smiling sincerely.
     His words make my stomach flip and my heart flutter. I feel like twirling around from the happiness his words gave me, but my joy quickly dies down when I remember Ruby and there 'date' today. I quickly shake my head no, not being able to find it in me to speak, and rush out the door to Diana's side. I look back to see him standing in the doorway of the school house, looking a little hurt and confused. I wonder why he is so sad at the fact I declined. He has Ruby! Why didn't he walk her home?
     Diana nudges my side, trying to gain my attention as I am clearly very lost in thought. I look over to her, forcing a gently smile. She smiles back sadly. We are kindred spirits, of course. We're connected through our hearts, minds, and souls. She must know exactly how I am feeling right now. I link my arm with hers as we continue walking, silent for a few more seconds before she speaks up.
     "Anne, I am so very sorry. I know you must be feeling very upset right now. If it helps any, I will be constantly sending you my spiritual condolences." she says to me, rubbing my arm slightly to try and make me feel beetter. I smile at her, giving her a small side hug.
    "It is quite alright Diana. I will not let a boy bring me down. I will be perfectly fine without him. Thank you for being my bosom best friend, if you weren't here I don't know what I would do!" I say lively, smiling at her brightly as I am so grateful to have someone like Diana in my life. I think everyone needs to have a Diana in their life, for she is absolutely magnificent.
I part my way with Diana as I skip the rest of the path back to Green Gables. If I hadn't talked to Diana, I would be very gloomy and depressed, but with her cheering up, I feel like I'm walking on sunshine! How grateful I am for her.
Ruby's POV
Once school ends, I run out of the school house to rush back home. I must look my absolute best for Gilbert. Oh how exciting! I never thought he would like me back, let alone ask me on a date! I've seen the way he looks at Anne and it has always brought me down, but this definitely reassured me that he feels the same! My mind is clouded with thoughts of Gilbert and our magnificent date we're going to have. This is an actual dream come true!
Once I get home, I rush into the house and go to my mother. I need to ask her for permission of course. I jog over to her side, smiling sweetly at her.
"Mother, I was wondering.... well you see-." I say, not knowing exactly how to ask. She looks at me confused.
"Well spit it out dear, what is it you need?" she asks me, waiting for my response.
"I was wondering if I may please go on a date with Gilbert Blythe this afternoon in town. He asked me today and I would absolutely love to go if it is okay with you. He is su-." I say quickly, gushing on before mother stops me.
"Well, I guess you may. But be back before supper and he may not court you until we have met him and his guardians for a dinner." she says to me sternly, but she is smiling. A huge grin spreads across my face as I squeal with excitement.
"Oh thank you thank you thank you mother! I love you so dearly and of course we will meet him for a dinner!! Eek!!" I say back, twirling around before rushing up the stairs to get ready. Tonight is going to be absolutely amazing.
Anne's POV
Once I get home, I open the door to be greeted by Marilla sitting at the table with tea and a novel.
"Hello Marilla!" I say to her happily. She looks up from her book and smiles at me before getting up to put her book away.
"Hello Anne. How was school today?" she asks me, giving me a slight smirk. I don't know what she's implying, but I brush it off as I take off my coat and hat.
"It was a little dull, but Diana always knows how to cheer me up. Also Ruby Gillis was- wait, should I tell you? Miss Stacey did say it is very bad to gossip about others." I say back to her, wondering if it's okay for me to talk about Ruby and Gilbert's date. She smiles at me and shakes her head slightly.
"Oh child." she says lowly, smiling to herself while cleaning off some things.
"Did you receive anything from anyone today?" she asks me, smirking a little with a mischievous expression.
"No. The only thing I received is homework, which I must get started on so it will be done by dinner!" I say, gathering a few of my books so I can go finish my school work. She looks at me slightly confused before rambling to herself for a few seconds.
"Okay dear, just be down in time for dinner." she says once she looks back up and forms her lips into a tight smile. I smile back and go to the stairs.
"Oh Anne, also, we will from now on have dinner with the Blythe family every Thursday. Sebastian and I made the schedule last night at supper." she yells to me before turning back to do her work. Great, now I have to see Gilbert every week. How am I every going to get over these emotions?
Present- starting from the end of last ch.
Gilbert's POV
"Ruby?" I say, looking confused at the little blonde. She forces a smile back at me.
"Hi Gilbert!" she says, her face tomato red. I can't tell if it's from the cold or being around me.
"What are you doing her?" I ask her, still looking around for Anne. When I look back at her, she looks a little distraught and confused.
"What are you doing her?" she asks me with a worried expression. I can see her shaking a little from nervousness. I wonder why she's so anxious.
"Oh well, um, you see.." I say to her, quickly looking at her then looking back up to search for any sign of red. "I slipped a note into Anne's coat pocket today asking her to meet me here, but I cannot seem to find her anywhere. I surely thought she would meet me, but I guess not." I say, my voice tinged with sadness. I look back down to see Ruby with a heartbroken expression on her face. Tears well up in her eyes as she obviously tries to hold herself together.
"Y-you're he-ere for A-anne.." she asks, looking down at her feet and wiping away a few tears. I look down at her confused before it dawns on me. She didn't think that.. no, she couldn't have. Could she?
"Ruby? Did.. did you find the note.. and think- think it was for.. you?" I say, slowly and worriedly. I feel awful as I should have addressed Anne in my note. She slowly nods her head as I head a small cry come from her. Oh no. What have I done?
"Oh Ruby, I am so very sorry. I should have made sure Anne knew it was for her. I feel terrible." I say quickly, trying to find a way to make her feel better. She looks up at me with a forced smile.
"It's okay Gilbert. I always knew you liked her. I was foolish to think any different. I just thought, maybe, for once, it could've been me.." she says while wiping tears, the last part she whispers, quiet as ever.
"Oh Ruby, you are an amazing girl who will find a handsome and kind beau, I know it. I am so very sorry for this misunderstanding and hope you can forgive me. I truly cherish our friendship even though we do not talk that often." I say to her, trying to smile sincerely at her.
"It's fine, Gilbert." she says to me, looking me in my eye, before walking away.
Ruby's POV
Heartbroken.
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Hey guys!! I am sooooo sorry I took forever to update! I'm going to try to get chapter six up soon though!! I know this chapter was kind of short and didn't have much context, but next chapter there's hopefully going to be more drama and things going on!!! I hope you all enjoyed this chapter :)
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