Momma

Epilogue

R I L E Y 'S P.O.V.
1 month later

I can't stay here. Everything here reminds me of my precious Anna Marie. I don't know how I got this idea, but I'm running away.

Lucas knows how to take care of Kason. I love him, both of them, don't get me wrong, I mean I REALLY love them both, but staying here is breaking me into so many tiny pieces. I'm a shattered piece of nothing lately, and I know when Lucas sees me like this, he falls apart a little too. I can't let him live with this type of setting.

Oh and poor Kason, my depression has caused me to fear being around him. I lie in bed at night and her his cries, his screams, just wanting his mommy to love him. That's why I'm leaving. I don't want Kason raised by that type of mother, the one afraid if him.

I know Lucas will do great raising his, our son, that's what comforts me when I think about Kason's future. He needs to be raised properly and Lucas will do just that, probably even better.

I just can't risk Lucas leaving me because of me wallowing in my depression, so I'll leave them, This is me giving them the life that deserve. A happy life.

Lucas had taken Kason to the park about 20 minute ago, of course with reluctance, he never wants to leave me alone. I don't blame him.

I told him to go ahead and take Kason to the park, I kissed him before I left, knowing that would be the last time I kissed him for a while, maybe even ever...

I even kissed the top if Kason's head, also with the same knowing that I had with Lucas. And that surprised them both. Little do they know...

After they left, I grabbed a couple pieces of paper and a pen, and wrote letters to everyone. To Lucas, multiple to Kason (one for each birthday up until he turns 18) Maya, Farkle, Smackle, Zay and Auggie. I don't bother with a letter to my parents, considering my relationship with them, well, sucks, and same vice versa.

As of right now, I'm packing my bags, I already took $10,000 out of my private bank account, leaving Lucas the to the one we share and his own, he'll need it with Kason.

Ok, it's time for me to go. This is it. Time for me to start my new life, in with the new and out with the old. Here I go. Goodbye my loves, Kason and Lucas, goodbye my old life. Goodbye.

And with that, I left to start my new life.

Oooo you guys probably don't like this ending! 😕Errr... go ahead and throw apples, oranges, peaches, or pears, or whatever you want to throw, at me! I deserve it with that ending 😬 just please don't throw rocks, or bananas, rocks would heard and that would be stoning me, and bananas, well they are really long.

Anyway, throw stuff at me, here I even got you a waddled up piece of paper *sticks hand out towards you offering the paper*

Welp, ok see ya in the next book!!! Oh wait!!! Yeah that's right! Sequel is a go and will be published August 5th.

Ok that's it! Thanks for coming with me during this crazy story! And thanks for all of your patience! Yeah, I know it took A LOT of patience... (Now that I look back, you guys are AMAZING with patience, where as I, am terrible at it)

So, forever and always

-rileseleanor. 💖

See ya next time!