Meant to Be (Twilight Love Story)

Chapter 20: Im Broken

Sabrina P.O.V

Benjamin walked up to me. I couldn't believe this was really happening. "Benjamin Ive missed you so much." I whispered. He smiled and pulled me into a hug. Oh his touch, I missed it so much. I looked up to his green eyes. "Love why are your eyes blue now?" He asked confused. "Did Carslie tell you what I am." I questioned, He nodded. "Well after my dad died they turned blue." I said. "Baby Im so sorry." He said staring at me with pity. "No Ben, I should apologizing... I left you.. Im sorry." I spoke looking away from him. He stroked my cheek, I looked up at him. "I love you Sabrina." He whispered. "And I love you." I said. He lightly brushed his lips against mine. I finally had my mate with me, But I felt sad still for some reason.

We all sat in the loft. Benjamin pulled me to a couch and sat down with me on his lap. Everyone was asking him questions. I zoned out for a moment. Everyone seemed to love Ben except for Tom. He seemed distant since Ben got here. Tom and I's eyes met for a moment. His eyes held sadness, He quickly looked away from me. I sighed to myself. I knew he liked me, but I loved Benjamin, He was my mate. Benjamin intertwined our hands, Tom stormed out of the loft. Nova and Alistair looked towards him with pity. I stood up to follow, Benjamin looked at me in confusion. "Ill be right back love." I said to him. He smiled and kissed my hand before I left. I ran outside looking for Tom. I spotted him on top of the cave. I jumped up next to him and sat. "Stealing my favorite spot eh?" I joked. He didn't reply he just looked out into the night. "Tom... I know you like me, but I belong with Ben. He is my mate." I spoke softly. He laughed bitterly at me. "You think I just have a little school boy crush on you Sabrina... Well think again... Im in love with you Sabrina." Tom spat out. "What? How could you love me?" I asked heartbroken knowing I could never return the feeling he had for me. "Ever since you turned me Sabrina I loved you. I love you the way mates love each other." Tom whispered. I gasped I felt bad for Tom I was his mate but Benjamin and I are each others mates. "I could never have you and it hurts... When I see you with Benjamin it hurts me." Tom spoke. I looked down at the ground "Tom I'm so sorry, You cant just fall in love with someone else?" I asked. "No it doesn't work that way.. Believe me I've tried." Tom spoke. I just nodded, and jumped down. I felt broken inside. I loved Tom but not in the way he loved me. I love Benjamin and only Benjamin. It hurt to see Tom that way. The problems just kept coming one after another.

I walked in the loft. Benjamin greeted me in a hug. "Im going to bed, Im tired." I said. Benjamin nodded and followed me to my room. I laid on the bed and Benjamin wrapped his arms around me. "Love whats wrong." Benjamin asked. "Im broken." I said. "What do you mean?" He asked worried. "I mean Im hurting everyone I love and its breaking me Ben... If I stay here and not go home, I hurt my family. But If I leave to go home, I hurt everyone here. And lastly Im hurting Tom. He loves me in a mate way but I don't love him that way... I love you that way.. I'm just hurting everyone Ben" I spoke softly. "Baby, you are not hurting everyone. They will accept the choice you make because they love you.. Sometimes we have to make hard choice even if it doesn't please others.. Life isn't always fair love. So don't worry whatever choice you make everyone will accept it." Benjamin said. I smiled at his words "You always know just what to say." He smiled and kissed my lips. I deepened the kiss. He chuckled at my excitement. "You sure missed me." Be spoke against my lips. "Hell ya." I laughed sitting up. "You know I never got a chance to be on top." I growled. I could feel the lust building up. "The top?" Benjamin asked confused. "You know." I said winking. "Oh um oh." He stuttered. I smiled at his actions. I pushed him against the bed. I straddled his waist. He tried to protest "Sabrina what if the others hear us?" He asked worried. He was about to continue protesting but I put a finger to his lips. "Shhh baby, let them heard us." I spoke darkly. I pressed my lips to his. My tongue darted across his lip asking for permission to enter but he declined. Oh he wants to play hard to get? I pinned his hands above his head, my lips never left his. I rocked my hips against his. He moaned into my mouth I took this chance to explore his mouth with tongue. I broke the kiss and sat up. I ran my hands down his chest. "Is this one of you favorite shirts?" I questioned. "Uh no why?" Ben asked. "Oh no reason." I said innocently. And with that I ripped open his shirt revealing his tanned chest and stomach. "Sabrina!" He gasped. "Oops." I chuckled. I kissed up his chest to his neck. I growled against his neck. I pulled off my shirt leaving me in my bra and shorts. "I think this should come off." I said taking off my bra. His eyes stared at my chest. I grabbed his hand and ran it up my torso. He cupped my breast and I moaned at his touch. "I need you Ben." I moaned out. His eyes clouded over with lust. I slipped off my shorts and underwear leaving me naked. I quickly ripped off Benjamin's pants and underwear also. He watched my every move. I then began to lower myself onto his hard erection. I winced at the pain. I still wasn't use to his size yet. I almost had all of him inside me, but I couldn't take the rest of me. "I cant go any down anymore." I whimpered. He put his hands on my hips and began to push me down on him. I whimpered out in pain. "Baby you have to relax for me okay?" He whispered. I nodded and he pushed up into me. I gasped when he was all the way in. I slowly started to thrust against him. His hands ran up and down my thighs. Then I began to bounce up and down faster. "No baby go slow." He instructed me. I ignored him and went the same pace. He grabbed my hips and made me go slow. "Ben I'm close." I moaned. He moaned at me saying his name. "Me too love, let go." He growled. With his word encouraging me I felt myself tighten around Benjamin. I then released moaning Benjamin's name. The feeling of me releasing set Benjamin over the edge. He pushed up into me and released. I got off him and laid down. He pulled the sheets over my naked body. "Love that was amazing Benjamin said rubbing my back. "Mm hmm." Was all I could manage to say. He kissed my neck. It was so good to have Benjamin here. All of the a sudden there was a voice at my door. "Maybe next you could close the door?" Tucker smirked at me and winked. "Get out and close the door." I growled. He chuckled and closed the door. Benjamin chucked at me. "Man I'm tired." I spoked. "Sleep love." Benjamin whispered against my ear. I snugged closer to him. I fell asleep in the arms of my mate. My mate.

Authors Note

Well Sabrina is sure happy to have Benjamin back(; Haha smut!^.^ Sorry if some of you guys don't like smut. For those o you who actually don't mind reading smut, how was my little smut scene? I feel like it was better than my one in chapter 11!(: If you didn't think it was very good I'm sorry this is my first story on Watt pad so that means this is the first time Ive written smut in a story. I hope you guys liked it aha. Any who!!! The next chapter is going to be sweet, Benjamin is going to tell Sabrina something that I hope will make your hearts melt! I watched this video that inspired the next chapter. What Benjamin is going to tell Sabrina is actually from the video. But I'm not going to tell you the name of the video until the end of the next chapter, because if you watched it you would know what Ben will tell Sabrina-,- Hmm I don't know what else to say!:( Oh! if any of you have chapter idea's or want to be in the story or something like that message me! If you give me chapter idea's ill be sure to give you full credit for the chapter you suggested!(: Well Buh Bye!(: