The window is tinted orange
Because of the relentless streetlights
That refuse to succumb to the night.
I try to write
Because sleep is running away
With my thoughts
I'm so peaceful
But so chaotic
That the lights flickering back and forth
Look more like extradimensional music notes
Than angels and demons
And I can sometimes hear the melody in the background of my chaos
I really cannot tell where the universe is pointing me
But I trust it
It's gotten me this far.
I'm sure that if I go with the flow, it's going to lead me home
And then to a new home after that
And another new home after that
But there's no prediction I can make that will tell me all I need to know
So the future is always going to be a mystery until it becomes the present
I no longer resent
The passing of time
I relentlessly climb through fields of rhymes
To express myself
But the passing of time is just flawed perception
For the future must be laid out already
We are truly just flames on burning twigs
While someday we must certainly all burn out,
And our ashes be blown away in the wind
The end is not the point
And I would say that the journey is
But it's no journey when every step is a new destination
I am trying my best at one thing
And that is to soak up every moment
Instead of trying to prove or improve myself
I just Love life so much
And it would be a shame if I just let it slip by like a holiday
And in thinking of love
I think of friends
And how our time is temporary
And our memories will fade
But how the fact that at one point
We loved each other to an addictive amount
Is unchanging and unchangeable
And that beautiful fact is what brings tears to my eyes
So if you wonder why my voice cracks
And my gaze drops
My eyes shimmering with a different kind of light
Then you should know how much I care for and respect you
I've already mourned for the shortness of everything in life
There's no more grief left for me to express
It's now just you and I,
The two of us connecting in ways that no one else understands
I see and know you in a different light than every single other person in the whole world.
That is the beauty of friendship
So it is okay to cry, my friend,
I understand the sincerity and desperation in your tears
Your fears
That this could be the very last time we lay eyes on each other
And hear our voices in duets and harmonies
But know that this parting changes nothing
About how much we care for and adore each other
About how much we truly appreciate one another
Who knows.
The universe was kind enough to let us meet.
Maybe it will allow us to meet again.
But friend,
As much as I have accepted and embraced this truth,
I am certainly going to miss you
My heart is truly going to cry out for you
Even before we Part
For it is already crying out now
As you circle through my mind
I really don't have a way nor will to slow it down
So as the streetlights illuminate the window
Fighting against the pitch black
And the silence deafens me
I try to write
And I realize that friendship is just a more casual way to say
'I Love You'
